Children

Everything is getting to me and it sux.

Life is moving downward then upward then back down again and I hate it.

I can't lighten up at all its like I cant breath even thinking about not worrying.

The recent death, recent issues in my own family, daily living at this point has become to much for me to deal with.

I can't ever get forward with things and financialy, emotionaly, and just breathing is so hard to deal with in a clear frame of mind. ...

So the weekend is a blur, seriously.

I remember being so ready for the weekend on Friday only for it now be Monday and I don't feel as though I had a weekend at all.

S was sick yesterday with a fever and just aching all over I gave her some otc stuff for it and it had a fever reducer in it (the tylenol cold & flu stuff) that took care of it for the night but this morning she woke up with a fever of 101 and bad sore throat so I take a look and its bright red and swollen ...

I love fall, did I already say that

I decided to make sloppy joes for supper something I haven't had since a kid at home, as DH never really wanted them, however last night I asked if they sounded good and he said yes I think it was more for me knowing as I like them so well. My sloppy joes are made with manwhich sauce and we always have to have kraft sliced cheese (not in the wrapper kind) on them. Oh yeah and ruffle chips last nights supper was full of memories for me. ...

Ughhhh, got a letter from the school dniece (although at the present it is b-for bratty neice) is skipping class, however in her teenage book of rules, she hasn't technicaly been skipping since she has been at school the whole time just not in the class she was suppose to be in, she has been going to the library to hang out, get on the computers etc.

Now while she is in Trouble with the capital T I see a fault in the school as well, why wasn't I contacted when she was missing, why ...

I really am smiling more, just the pure joy of having my niece back is one of the reasons but its not the only reason.

I love having someone to care for the extra laundry, the extra cooking, the extra love I get for doing those things.

I cooked homemade hamburgers the other night and DH had gotten on the computer to play his game and dniece had went to her room to lay down for a bit and I cooked supper and had it all ready for them to come and eat that task made me smile ...

I have a cutter on my hands

I have done all I can to know whats up with my niece and to be opened minded about it all and to try not to over control everything she does but I have her password to her online blog at MS and I read where she was thinking about her mom and her ex today and wanted to run and hide and cut I have been trying to not be so obvious when she is sitting by me but I have to watch the wrist, the under arms, the belly, and the legs and its not so easy checking ...

I slept in today until about 10, lazed around and just chilled.

It seems last week was a blur and if it weren't for my niece really being back home I'd think it was all a dream.

We have been busy since she got here going to the school, health dept, dhs, just getting it all lined out for school to start on top of that getting school stuff and just getting my head back into "mom" mode.

She is in her room now hanging up what little she has and the ...

I was at the airport 4 hours early as anxious as a new mom waiting on their miracle to arrive by plane would be I guess someone asked DH if we were waiting on someone and he said our girl, they then assumed it was our child comeing in from a vacation, we said no she was coming home from her mothers, they then asked if we were adopting and we are finalizing it this time so we said yes, they then asked how old, when we said just turned 15 they looked at us like we were nuts, oh well she's mine ...

I was getting ready for bed when the phone rang, it was my mom, niece who I have raised who lived with me and wanted to try it back with her mom had called screaming for DH and mom said she heard a man in the background yelling and then S screamed and the phone went dead.

I nearly passed out I was so shaken and dont remember it all to clearly but I know that I went to my moms while DH stayed home looking for their # he also logged on to messenger in hopes she would get on if she were ...

Whirlwhind of a weekend.

Mom came home from being with my gramma, she has a spider bite that is turning black and has infection all around it so she is needing taken care of as her diabetes are out of whack due to the infection.

I have literealy days to move them to find somewhere to get the money to pay the deposits to move them and my back is going out.

My niece is driving me nuts, she wants to move, she doesn't want to move, she loved her boyfriend, ...