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Saturday S will be leaving, I have the obligation of taking her to the airport and sitting with her until the plane leaves of course I wouldn't let anyone else do that just so my mind can be at rest that she gets on ok, of course I wont truly rest until I know the plane she arrives in makes it safe and sound.

IM just so numb to this whole thing, why do I always have to be the one who puts on the happy face so everyone will do as they want, when I want to scream and yell.

Why does she have to email only when she needs to call? Wonder what would have happened if I never checked my email again would she call or just sit there in another world thinking all is just grand.

DH has meetings this week and I have decided to go not so sure how it will turn out with leaving sis, bil and baby in the home while we are gone hopfuly it will not see a lot of company in and out. I need the break I plan to laze around and read out on the balcony or in bed who cares right.

My stomach is in knots over our finances but sometimes its best to leave sleeping dogs lay and for this week and weekend thats what I intend to do.