guslisa

Had a good day today with my babes. We ran errands and went to lunch and they were sooo good. L had his first cheese omlette and of course loved it. E ate some pancakes and fruit, little miss picky.

We then played in the jacuzzi when we got home and ms m loosened up and actually didn't mind getting splashed in the face! Then we all got into the shower and she stood under the spray! I hope it wasn't a fluke.

They're talking so much: i wuv u, go way, brober come ...

oh so long since I've been here. feeling the need to have somewhere to go for advise, support, a vent - again. actually the need has been there all this time, I just haven't found the time to get back here. I still can't find the time, it's 12:22 a.m. right now. but the need is getting stronger and it's time. I've also been doing this parenting thing long enough now where I feel that maybe, just maybe, I might be able to lend support to others, finally.

I'm going to attempt to ...

Ugh, these hormones. Or maybe DH is hormonal. I don't know but he's so infuriating these days. I just want to stomp on him most of the time. But then I just want to squeeze him and kiss him too, I love him so much.

They say men have sympathy symptoms, and I truly believe it. He's been soooo moody lately, and grouchy. I sure hope this gets better, or we'll kill each other.

It's so exciting! I'm doing much better at not worrying all the time that something is wrong, but I still can't help it sometimes. So now, when I have doubts, I can just listen to the heartbeats.

We got it yesterday and were able to find one heartbeat, but after two attempts we gave up on the other one. But this morning I was finally able to find both hb's - yea!!! It's so wonderful to hear, it just makes it so real.

I'm just 4 days away from starting my 2nd trimester, ...

I'm so sick and tired of being freaked out all the time. Today I'm having constant, dull cramps. Like AF cramps but not as strong. Kind of all over. No bleeding so I know that it's probably ok, just growing/stretching, but I still can't help but worry. I've been checking for blood every half hour, I'm obsessing and I can't stop myself.

Ugh! It's so scary and I hate that feeling, I'm not enjoying this pg hardly at all and I know I'll regert that some day.

Calm, ...

My butt is so happy! It still had not healed from IVF #1 when we started IVF #2, so it's a mess. I bet it'll take until the babies' fifth birthday before it feels normal again, if ever!

It's lumpy and bruised and I have wierd sensations running down one leg. What a mess. All worth it though if these little beans stick it out!

I keep thinking I'm going to get a book about being pg with twins. Or a couple of pairs of stretch pants. Or a heartbeat monitor (as Kim suggested). Or post to the multiples due date chart.

But I feel like it's still too soon for this stuff. What if? I would hate to come home from a horrible appt and then have all that stuff staring me in the face. I already have a bunch of stuff that other people have bought me.

I keep hesitating, thinking it's still too ...

I keep hearing that once you've seen the heartbeat you only have 2% chance of m/c. Or if there is no bleeding or cramping you're ok.

However, the last time I got this far in a pg, I saw the heartbeat, things were fine, symptoms continued, no cramps or bleeding and for the 3rd u/s they told me the heartbeat had stopped and the baby stopped growing 3 weeks ago! And I didn't even know it, no m/c symptoms, pg symptoms going strong.

So really, there is no way of knowing ...

I can't stop worrying. Even after getting another great beta number today, I can't stop worrying. I was excited for a minutes and then the worry set in again. After having a m/c at almost 12 weeks, I can't stop thinking that it's too soon to get excited.

What really pisses me off is that it's ruining what is supposed to be a very exciting time. I want to enjoy every second of this pregnancy because we've worked so hard to get here. But I keep thinking, something could still go ...

Today is my 8 year wedding anniversary and all I can think about is whether or not I'm still pg. I was loving having to sleep in a bra on Fri and Sat night, but now my @@ aren't sore at all. However, I was very busy today and by this afternoon I was bone tired, hopefully a good sign. The sharp pains on my left side are gone, but now I'm having some pains on my right side, also, I hope this is a good sign. My back is achy as well. However, what freaks me out is that all these are also symptoms ...