gradualchanges

So I've been reading a lot about health and nutrition lately... and I just read a blog post by a cancer survivor that got me thinking... A lot of times you see these stories of people who encountered some sort of crisis (usually health related), these people tell stories of the dramatic changes they made to thier lifestyle (many times these changes are food, exercise and stress management related) that helped them through the crisis. Well what I was thinking is... I don't want to wait until I'm faced with that health crisis why can't I make these changes for the better now? So that's what I'm gonna try to do.

In thinking about this I'm realizing that I have already encounted my own crisis (losing the twins at 20 weeks) and that's where a lot of this is coming from anyway. That event is one of those things that split your life and way of thinking into before and after... Immediatly upon going home from the hospital, DH and I started making changes to our environment. We cleaned up the apartment and reignited old stalled projects that were just sitting around. We were really sweet to each other and really wanted to be with and there for each other as much as possible. And as hard as that time was (and franklt still is...), we did well for a couple of weeks. Then we started migrating back to the same old patterns of behavior that we'd established in our 14 years together before that event. I'm probably more guilty of this than DH. He is better at being mindful than I am and with the post-pardom hormones wreaking a bit of havoc, I was/am very inconsistant.

This is not new... this is the same problem and desire that prompted me to create this screen name (gradualchanges) in the first place. I need to make changes and I think that by taking small steps and gradually incorporating these changes into my lifestyle it will be less traumatic. I need to think about how I want to life my life and purposefully create that life instead of just letting myself be controlled by the day-to-day craziness of living in a major city and working long hours at a corporate job.

Ok I've put these thoughts down on paper (so to speak) now I have to work on actually implementing some change. I'll have to let you know how that goes...