Goldspider

So, I had my suppression check done yesterday. It was good this time. Ultrasound was good also. So we are still on schedule this go round. Paid my fees and turned in our consents. It's starting to feel more real again. This brings on more anxiety. Oh how I hope it takes this time. If it does I know my anxiety will be high as I don't know how to feel if I were to get pregnant after 17yrs of trying. I have only imagined all these years. It's so hard not to get my hopes up even though the fresh and frozen cycles didn't take before, but I changed doctors. He changed the medications. My endometriosis was cleaned out last year. So this doctor is thinking it will work this time. I wanted to cry during the training on my new meds yesterday since it was starting to feel real. I didn't want to cry in front of the nurse though. Well, starting on Monday, 8/6, I start my stim meds.