It's been over a year...
Posted 11-07-2009 at 04:57 PM by fluffybunny
since I have posted here. I'm in a funk today and just felt like posting so there you have it. Anyone who doesn't want to be sucked into someone's funk may want to avoid this post. Mostly I don't have any where to vent with out offending any one. So here I go...
Jeff and I are updating our paperwork for adoption. It's taking forever and times a tickin'. We've already done the homestudy in Oct. so here it is Nov and the paper work isn't done. That's a month post homestudy we wasted. Jeff says this year is it. So once the homestudy is up next year we wont be updating again. We plan to get on the last minute hospital waiting list in Dec and we've opened ourselves up to a broader range of birthmoms we're willing to work with. I feel like we're doing all we can to put ourselves out there and make a match. But, in my mind I know that odds are nothing will happen this year. And then no baby. It just kind of hit me today. And it sucks. I have lots of friends that I've met through the 2 playgroups my son and I are in and most of them have had a baby since we joined the groups. Several are ready to start on the next baby. Ben's best friend C just had a baby sister born a few weeks ago and Ben keeps asking me when we can bring her to our house to sleep. That just breaks my heart. He keeps watching his friends become big brothers and sisters this last year and wants us to have a baby here too. He has invented this imaginary baby that he pushes in a stroller around the house. He tickles its imaginary feet and pretends to put it in the crib we left up in his old room. How do you explain to a 3 year old that you would have a baby if you could but you can't?
Jeff and I are updating our paperwork for adoption. It's taking forever and times a tickin'. We've already done the homestudy in Oct. so here it is Nov and the paper work isn't done. That's a month post homestudy we wasted. Jeff says this year is it. So once the homestudy is up next year we wont be updating again. We plan to get on the last minute hospital waiting list in Dec and we've opened ourselves up to a broader range of birthmoms we're willing to work with. I feel like we're doing all we can to put ourselves out there and make a match. But, in my mind I know that odds are nothing will happen this year. And then no baby. It just kind of hit me today. And it sucks. I have lots of friends that I've met through the 2 playgroups my son and I are in and most of them have had a baby since we joined the groups. Several are ready to start on the next baby. Ben's best friend C just had a baby sister born a few weeks ago and Ben keeps asking me when we can bring her to our house to sleep. That just breaks my heart. He keeps watching his friends become big brothers and sisters this last year and wants us to have a baby here too. He has invented this imaginary baby that he pushes in a stroller around the house. He tickles its imaginary feet and pretends to put it in the crib we left up in his old room. How do you explain to a 3 year old that you would have a baby if you could but you can't?
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I wish I knew what to say.....
Ben is such a sweetie.Posted 11-07-2009 at 06:09 PM by BC-3boys2luv
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I remember you from the adoption bb's. So sorry you're feeling low about your chances of a match. I know how stessful it is. If you're opening up your oprions for BM situations, you may see a lot more opportunities open us. We were pretty open and had great success. Good luck!Posted 11-07-2009 at 07:41 PM by M&M
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Praying for you. I have wondered where you have been.Posted 11-08-2009 at 10:33 AM by StacyD
