Emma2

Well I guess I have finally decided to start a blog! I am not sure how I will use it but I hope it will help me and force me to write things down.

Life has been crazy since having little Cameron. We have been on a huge rollercoaster, between worrying about DH's job and then being held in limbo about the new job for such a long time. Selling the house (which I didn't think would happen even up to the hour we closed) moving to the new state and trying to find a house and starting our new lives here. WOW I just want to get off this rollercoaster for a little while!

We have relocated now 10 times and I have always been ok, but this time was my first as a Mommy and it is a whole new experience. Amy and Cameron have been awesome! Amy has taken it a harder than we really realize. Her little world has been turned upside down and she has no idea why! But she is a little trooper and I am so proud of her. I am so excited to see her when we move into the new house and we get her room together with all her things, I hope that settles her down and starts to find comfort in the new house just like our old house. Amy's room is first on my list!

Cameron is an amazing baby, he is so calm and he never complains about anything! He is nearly 4 months old now. Where does the time go? He is starting to roll over and he can sit on his own with a little support. His best is being on his feet, HE LOVES IT!

It is such a strange thing to me being a mommy of 2 babies. With Amy I was so so excited to see her do new things and I spent my time encouraging her to sit up, roll over and all the 'firsts'. With Cameron it breaks my heart to see him grow. Don't get me wrong I want him to grow and learn new things but everytime is a reminder that he is growing up and he is my last baby!

I am doing ok I guess. I think I am suffering from PPD again... I can't say why I just do not feel myself and I am feeling anxious all the time. I keep thinking it is because of all that has been going on but who knows.... I will figure it out......

I guess I have a lot more to say in my new blog than I ever thought. Hmmm I think this is good for me.

I have so much to get off my chest and with all the sad news on the BB the last week or so I find it hard to post..... I am so devastated for the precious familys that are dealing with such sad times. It makes me cry! to all the families.... I wish I had the words for them.....