WHy do I do this????????

I knew she was due. I knew it!!! BUT maybe just maybe she wouldn't come this month. Things happened, things that don't happen that often round here and I thought that it could be time for a miracle. I want to have a cry but will wait until later when I have a shower..........can always blame the shampoo then.

What makes me think I deserve a miracle?? I already have four!! I was joking with DH yesterday about having another baby...

Yet again I need to think out loud and I know this is a safe place for those thoughts. Any comments will be taken on board and chewed over

I am feeling "clucky" again. Holding my friends 5 month old the other day put me over the edge. My big babes are turning 5 on Sunday and my little girls are full blown toddlers now at 21 months. I miss the 1st year. I know there are so many amazing things happening in the ages my children are and they astound me every...

Well we had the scan and found out we are blessed with twins again. WOW WEE, we are so clever.

The scan was March 1st and I have my 12 weeks scan next Tuesday. DH and I, mostly DH, decided we would wait till 12 weeks to tell family and friends. Mind you I have told a couple of friends in my home town who don't know our families.

So after the scan we will tell MIL and FIL, MIL wasn't very positive when we said we were thinking about having another baby, hopefully...

Well morning sickness has started oh fun oh joy.

It takes a bit of timing to make sure I don't get followed into the bathroom by 2 very inquisitive 2.5 year olds. I have to slip the latch before they get to the door. Luckily they don't follow too often.

I still have a week before the ultrasound. I've been using HPTs as a bit of a security blanket. If I'm feeling a bit flat I do one and see those 2 lines.........Yippee I'm pregnant LOL.

DH is still...

I'm wondering - who is reading this stuff?

Surely I'm not that interestingLOL.

Still feeling "off" but I had a little rest and it helped. Can't get too much of a rest with the bubs running round so I have to use nap time

I am so impatient at the moment. I need to know who is inside me and I have to wait 2 *&^% weeks. It's funny , the only time I use HPTs is after I get a positive Beta. Getting the positive HPT reassures me that I'm...

I feel like crap. just want to cry. I know it's the hormones. It's also the fact that DH seems to have lost any thought of romance. He used to surprise me with the occasional bunch of flowers, but that stopped a long time ago. I hate stupid Valentines Day!!!!!!!!!!!!

Because we haven't told anyone IRL that I am pregnant I have no-one to talk to. I just want to say words to someone and have them listen to me. Lord I feel so alone. DH has gone off to work and here I am alone...

Well I booked for my 1st scan. **** my RE is away until March 1st so I have to wait until then. The good thing is we will be able to see the heartbeat/s.

I checked my journal from when I was pregnant with DS and DD. My 1st beta this time was 108, with DS & DD it was 110. The 2nd betas are similar too. Of course there is always the chance we will have 4 under 4, heck if that's what we get who am I to argue.

To be honest I didn't expect to get pregnant...

It's been 3 days since our BFP and it only just sunk in. I was having a read through my What to expect book and had a lightning bolt........I'm going to be a Mum again.

I fully intend to enjoy this pregnancy, good and not so good stuff. I hope to be more laidback this time. When I was pregnant with DS and DD I was nrevous the whole time.

Even the FET was more laid back. Doing a "Natural" cycle meant no added pressure of scans and shots. 3 blood test...

Well the transfer is complete. Two healthy developing embryos transferred back home. Now I need to figure out how to rest up and look after 2 very energetic toddlers.

Last time was so easy I rested when I needed and only had myself to worry about. Guess the housework can wait a little while. Looks like I'll have to cut back on the computer time. THis may not be a bad thing as I am starting to obsess a little and should just lay back and read a non baby/pregnancy/child book....

Well I have so much going through my head so I thought I'd try this as a release. Don't want to burden people, we all have our trials to bear

I'm excited about the pending transfer of 2 of our precious embryos. But, heck am I scared. The IF witch is bizarre, you think you've dropped a house on her when you have your babies but she's just waiting round the corner to jump out and grab ya.

At times I'm a glass half empty type of gal. I guess it's just a protection...