http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/ Infertility and Adoption online interactive support community for your family-building efforts. Information and discussion includes infertility, adoption, pregnancy, parenting and surrogacy issues. en Tue, 18 Jun 2013 23:31:53 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/ http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/24955-so-mad-my-personal-battle-donuts.html Mon, 24 Sep 2007 13:50:31 GMT i'm pregnant...yes. it's wonderful. yet...it brings out such a piggy fat man in me! ugh! i crave donuts and ice cream...and queso from chili's. maybe it's because i've deprived myself for so long....maybe it's b/c the devil lives in me...i don't know! but it's making me mad! i've already gained over 10 pounds in 15 weeks!!!! ( 10 pounds i sweated off and lived in the gym to lose in the spring. ) i can't keep giving into these cravings from hell! i can't! if i do, i'll be 60 pounds heavier like i was with christian! i just knew he'd be a 40 pound baby at birth...i knew i couldn't have gained all that weight by myself! yet...he was a measly 7lb 5oz. oh gosh...i thought it'd be different this time. yet...my big burly man-self is back...screaming for grease and buckets of sugar! what will i do???? ahhh...i'll probably give in and justify it like i do everyday! "this is our last baby; i won't ever have an excuse to be fat again!" i won't ever again allow myself donuts and ice cream, while laying on the couch watching tv. at least not for longer than a day. yes i eat normal, healthy meals. but the in-between snacks on candy, chips, and junk are killing me!

oh well...it's stupid. i know. i'm blessed to have another baby on the way! i shouldn't focus on ME. i just want a healthy baby. and i want a healthy me. so why can't i remember that when i see a krispy kreme drive thru? why can't i just pass it? :shrug: ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/24955-so-mad-my-personal-battle-donuts.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/41473-im-what.html Wed, 03 Jan 2007 01:39:21 GMT You Are a Capitalist Republican



Money makes your world go round - and it's no surprise that you always vote your wallet.
You're financially successful (or plan to be), and your agenda is low tax and pro business.
You don't get fired up about abortion... but mention capital gains tax, and you go crazy.
You want government to be as small as possible - and to stay out of the way of business.

What's Your Political Persuasion?

http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourp...ersuasionquiz/
WELL, I'M A REPUBLICAN. THAT'S FOR SURE. BUT, I DO GET FIRED UP ABOUT ABORTION. I DO FAVOR TAX CUTS. BUT I'M NOT REALLY AS MONEY-ORIENTED AS THIS SAYS. OH WELL...IT WAS FUN. :) ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/41473-im-what.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/41476-new-blog-new-year.html Wed, 03 Jan 2007 01:29:09 GMT READING MY PAST FEW BLOGS...I REALIZE WE'VE BEEN TTC#2 FOR A YEAR! WOW!!!! OKAY, SO I'M PREGNANT RIGHT NOW. GOT THAT? RIGHT NOW! BETAS GOING CRAZY...NOT DOWN...BUT NOT UP LIKE THEY SHOULD. I'M 7 WEEKS TODAY...AND WILL GET ANOTHER BETA RESULT TOMORROW. :rolleyes: PRAYING FOR A GREAT NUMBER...BUT PREPARED FOR THE WORST. I GUESS THAT'S WHAT IF DOES TO YA...MAKES YOU A LIL' PESSIMIST WHEN IT COMES TO FAMILY-BUILDING. I'VE GOT FAITH, THOUGH, THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY. I'LL EVENTUALLY HAVE ANOTHER BABY. AND I'M JUST SO THANKFUL FOR MY SWEET BABY BOY.

SO...2007...AN ODD YEAR. NOT SURE HOW I FEEL ABOUT THOSE. ALL EXCITING THINGS IN MY LIFE SEEM TO HAPPEN DURING EVEN YEARS. LET'S SEE...BORN IN 1978, GRADUATED H.S. IN 1996, GRADUATED COLLEGE IN 2000, GOT MARRIED IN 2000, HAD MY FIRST CHILD IN 2004...HMMM. WELL, NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT, BAD THINGS HAVE HAPPENED, TOO. LOST A PREGNANCY IN 2002 AND 2006. LOST MY POP, THE ONLY FAMILY MEMBER CLOSE TO ME, IN 2006. BUT, FOR THE MOST PART...GOOD THINGS HAPPEN IN EVEN YEARS. ODD YEARS ARE JUST...ODD. BUT, MAYBE...JUST MAYBE...2007 WILL CHANGE MY FEELINGS! MAYBE...JUST MAYBE...THIS BABY THING WILL WORK OUT AND I'LL ACTUALLY HAVE SOMETHING TO CELEBRATE DURING AN ODD YEAR! :crossfing

NOW...ONTO MY NEW YEAR'S WISHES (NOT RESOLUTIONS...THOSE ARE TOO EASILY BROKEN!). NOT EVEN GOING TO WRITE THEM DOWN ON PAPER. I'LL KEEP 'EM HERE AND ON MY S P @ C E (aka "the forbidden site").
1. TO COMPLETE OUR FAMILY
2. TO BE MORE FAITHFUL TO CHURCH...ATTEND MORE THAN ONCE A WEEK...B/C I WANT TO...B/C IT HELPS ME...NOT B/C I FEEL OBLIGATED.
3. TO BE A BETTER MOMMY, WIFE, DAUGHTER, SISTER, FRIEND, ETC. I WANT MY FAMILY & FRIENDS TO KNOW I'M ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE WITH THEM...AND I'LL DO ANYTHING FOR THEM!
4. TO BE EASIER ON MYSELF. IF I GAIN 30 POUNDS...SO WHAT? I DON'T HAVE TO LOOK PERFECT TO BE HAPPY AND ACCEPTED. GUESS I'LL GET SOME COUNSELING FOR THIS ONE...IT'S A BOOGER!
5. TO COMPLETE ALL MY SCRAPBOOKS, PHOTO ALBUMS, AND PHOTO DISPLAYS. OH, AND CHRISTIAN'S BABY BOOK NEEDS SOME MAJOR UPDATING TOO.

OKAY...ENOUGH RAMBLING. I'LL TRY TO COME HERE MORE OFTEN. IT'S NICE TO JUST LET IT ALL FLOW... LOL. ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/41476-new-blog-new-year.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/51423-first-blog-since-december.html Tue, 30 May 2006 21:17:41 GMT well, still trying this baby #2 thing as christian (ds) enters the terrible 2's a tad early! :eek: he's really a stink-pot these days...but the sweetest stinker alive! ;) i love that kid!!!! he's growing too fast, which makes me feel rushed to get pregnant w/ another. so scary and frustrating. am i ovulating? am i pregnant? where's af? stupid body of mine! :mad:

anyway, i'm gonna be here more. this is a good, safe place for me. life is good but there are always things i need to get out!!!! :excite:

phew...i feel better already. be back soon! :D ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/51423-first-blog-since-december.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/60413-dh-ready-ttc.html Tue, 13 Dec 2005 14:10:19 GMT Well, I'm in shockerville right now! Dh said he thinks it'd be good if I got pg anytime now. What? Mr. "Let's plan life out perfectly" already wants another baby. Christian just celebrated his first birthday on Saturday. That was an amazing day! Just perfect! And, the next day dh is ready for another baby. Of course, b/c I don't have a normal cycle...it's going to take several months if everything works perfectly. But, still! Dh loves being a daddy! :D Christian and him are best buddies. Christian would be around 2 yrs old when #2 came, IF we're blessed w/ #2, and he'd be in daycare at the school I work at and my parents own. So, I guess this month I'm going to see how my cycle works and if I need to get back on Prometrium. Then, starting in January - it's back to TTC land! Planning, timing, testing, waiting, etc. I'm SO excited!!!! :clap:
I already have names picked out, too. Have for awhile now....and I'm going to write them here in case I need PROOF that they were mine first! :laugh: ((( SIL has a nack for swiping my name choices! :D )))

Girl - Ella Grace ("Ella")
Boy - James Hudson ("Hudson") ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/60413-dh-ready-ttc.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/60777-12-06-2005-09-14-pm.html Wed, 07 Dec 2005 03:14:06 GMT Things are good. Dh is at a basketball game ( I think they lost again! :( ) and ds is sleeping. I'm on FT...wishing my Christmas pictures were online. I swear, my photographer takes too long! It's been almost a week and we have yet to see the proofs! If she wasn't a sweetie, I'd email her and beg beg beg her to hurry. I'm so impatient! I'm really just wanting to order our Christmas cards!

Work is tough. Still struggling w/ finances. But, I KNOW things will get better. They do everytime I worry. Today was a close one, though. :eek: Thank GOD my dad is so awesome. He helps me fix everything...he's the best! Christian loved going to a different place w/ his babysitter. He loved the baby he was with, too. She is a sweet girl! I LOVE my babysitter! She's so great! Thank you Jesus for her.

Okay, so I guess I'll start folding some laundry. Dh will be home in an hour, and I want to be ready to hop into bed w/ him. No lovin' tonight, though. We're both so pooped! However, we're on for tomorrow night! :blush: :laugh: I love "planning" our sex life! :laugh:

So, to sum up my feelings right now....
I love my life. My dh is awesome, my ds is perfect! My parents are wonderful and give more than they should. I'm dreading work tomorrow but thankful I have a good job. I wish dh's basketball team would WIN! I'm hungry but have eaten all my calories today. I should exercise...but won't. And, I pray God continues to bless us!! Life is good! ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/60777-12-06-2005-09-14-pm.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/61029-its-been-blog-free-couple-weeks.html Fri, 02 Dec 2005 15:37:53 GMT and I've missed it!
Everything is good. Dh is amazing. Ds is more precious to me than anything in this world. My family is great and healthy! I'm doing well...still dieting and staying busy. Dh's mom is officially "outta there"! We are so happy. We're going to see her a few days after Christmas and are looking forward to a Tom-free visit! Yay! He's just never going to get a clue that he's not perfect!

Dh and his mom are talking more now than ever. Yes, he's her financial advisor and she's needing some investment help thru all of this, but at least they're talking. They used to go for weeks at a time w/o even speaking or emailing or anything! WOW! That's hard for me to understand. I talk and see my parents every single day. They are our best friends! MIL is just different: been thru some tough things in her life, very independant, and different in her political/religious beliefs than us. But, we feel our relationship w/ her is on the mends...b/c she's getting divorced! She seems very upbeat about this. We're still in shock! Oh, and we get her dog - which was dh's dog in high school. Sadie is great but we don't have a fence for her. She's an outside dog...we have an inside dog that is trained perfectly. Still debating if we should pay $2000+ for a fence or train her. As of right now...we're going to try to train her. Still trying to pay off the last of our credit card debt. It should be gone by March...still in awe of that...so we can build a fence in the Spring.

My brother and SIL have their house on the market in KY! They are moving home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are so happy!!!! They have 2 boys, so ds will LOVE growing up w/ his cousins. They're going to live w/ my parents for 6 months or so to get back on their feet financially (major credit card debt!) and will then buy a house no more than 1 mile from here. Life is great! My brother and I have drifted apart since he's been away for 8 years. We love eachother and get along...but we're just more distant now. SIL and I get along great and talk 5 times a week at least! I can't wait til they get here...in February! Yay for them! Yay for us!

Okay, gotta hop in the shower. Going to lunch w/ a friend. Yes, I'll eat right. A salad w/ shredded chicken (my fave!). Ds is napping so the shower time-slot is wide open!!!! :D
TTFN! ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/61029-its-been-blog-free-couple-weeks.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/61689-today-perfect.html Mon, 21 Nov 2005 02:17:51 GMT Dh is home from Missouri. Got home last night. They lost all 3 games but had a great time!!! That's all that matters anyway. They're just little kids, right?! He wishes they would've done better but at least they're improving, becoming a "team", and having fun!

Anyway, we had planned on going to church this morning and tonight. BUT...we didn't. We slept in (if you call 7:40am sleeping in), ate pancakes, watch the Cowboys football game, at lunch, went to the malls, grabbed some take-out Mexican for dinner, and then came home to...eat and watch tv! It was a fun, relaxing day w/ just dh, me, and ds! We are so tired now, though. Dh is already getting ready for bed, ds is IN bed, and I'm working on ds's birthday party plans. I'll be in bed by 9pm, though. WOW! I feel bad for skipping church, but it really was a wonderful day! God forgives us. We are so faithful to church...we needed this family day.

Ahhhh...I forget how wonderful my life really is! :D Good night! ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/61689-today-perfect.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/61822-dhs-mom-what.html Fri, 18 Nov 2005 14:51:13 GMT Calling ME???? Wow! This whole divorce thing is really going to enhance our relationship...I can already tell. She called last night, knowing dh was out of town, and we talked for 45 minutes. :eek: We've NEVER talked that long before. She acts happy, even though I know she's disappointed her marriage is over. He's such a jerk! So many stipulations. I'm glad she's not going to put up w/ that! She can finally do what she wants, when she wants, with whom she wants, and wear what she wants! I can't believe she endured his "control" for 7 years!

Well, I'm done Christmas shopping...or so I thought. I forgot about a few things so I'll get those covered today. Plus I need to grab gift boxes. It'll be a fun day. Tonight I'm cleaning cleaning cleaning!!!! I might even mop. Then dh will be here tomorrow night. I need to shave my legs before then...ha! :blush:

Going to eat good today. I went over my 1000 yesterday but not by much. I'll make up for it today! Almost nap time for Christian!!!! Then, I get to get ready for a wonderful Friday! Hmmmm...seriously considering allowing mom to watch Christian tonight so I can sleep in tomorrow. It's been tooooooo long! ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/61822-dhs-mom-what.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/61904-its-been-few-days.html Thu, 17 Nov 2005 03:50:19 GMT since I've blogged. Things are good. I'm dieting hard again b/c I GAINED 1.5 pounds last week. Stupid candy! So...this week I'm making up for it. I've done good so far. No more than 1000 calories! My goal is to be 3 pounds lighter by Thanksgiving morning. I am working hard to be there! Then...only 7 pounds left before Christmas. Man! I better kick it into high gear! I need to get my butt to the gym. My thighs look massive! Oh well. Life is too good to cry about flabby thighs!

I'm SOOOOOO happy! Dh just called from Missouri (coaching basketball) to tell me the best news! MIL is DIVORCING her husband. Now, this guy is not dh's step-dad or anything b/c they got married after dh & I did. So...he's just "her husband" to us. He's a major jerk! A know it all, thinks you're stupid if you don't believe how he does, controlling, negative, just insecure WRONG type of person. Can't stand him but we've tried. MIL finally has had it. He's jealous of every man walking by her (he's VERY insecure) and has made her change her wardrobe to only high necked tops, long skirts, pants, and yep...turtle necks! He says she can't come see her ONLY son (dh) and ONLY grandchild (ds) b/c he and dh don't agree on religion or politics...or anything for that matter. She can't even color her OWN HAIR! He says no way! He's miserable to be around. Just terrible! The whole family has just bit their tongues and put up w/ him for the past 6-7 years, but tonight...we're all celebrating!!!! I know it's bad to be happy when people divorce, but I think even God is happy about this one! So, in 4 weeks when we go to visit her and the rest of the gang - we don't have to even look at this guy! Christian doesn't have to grow up w/ this man in our lives! So much relief!!!!!

Okay, well...I'm done ranting. I'm now going to attempt to empty and re-load the dishwasher whild ds is snoozing. Dh won't be home until Saturday night. I'm going to clean out the office, clean out Christian's closet, and shampoo the carpets between now and then. WOW! He'll be so happy when he comes home. Especially since they probably won't win a game at the tournament. They really stink this year! Oh well - just a game...just kids having fun. It's the parents and coaches that get their panties wadded!

TTFN! I love today! ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/61904-its-been-few-days.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62196-11-11-2005-09-46-pm.html Sat, 12 Nov 2005 03:46:02 GMT I actually got some cleaning done tonight. Still working on it while Christian is sleeping. I neeed to vacuum the living room, but I know it'll wake the baby. Guess I'll do it first thing in the morning. Dh won't be home for another hour. Basketball season is rough. He works all day then goes to coach basketball 5 nights a week. He loves it, though, and it's good for the boys. They are all growing closer, improving in their skills, and growing spiritually. It's great! He was such an awesome basketball player in college. Man! He still is. I think he's better now, but he doesn't get to play as much as he used to. He loves it...it's one of his passions.

Anyway, I saw our family Christmas picture today. I looked like a pig. I didn't even take the pictures I ordered home...too depressing. So, I'll get 'em later and pray I somehow shrink. We really do have a pretty family, though. All of us look so happy, and the boys (my ds & 2 nephews) were actually looking at the camera...kind of. It was a fun day taking those pictures. I love my family! My mom is the best friend I have. We talk and see eachother everyday. She's so encouraging and uplifting. She tells me I'm a good mommy, a good worker, and that I'm pretty. She's the beautiful one but makes me feel the same. She's the hard worker (like...70 hrs. week) but lets me know she approves and is proud of my choice to work part time so I can spend the other 3 days w/ Christian. She's the good mommy...she really was amazing! Still is. I, to this day, feel sad if I disappoint her. She really made me an honest woman.

Okay, now I gotta get to cleaning this kitchen. Dh will be worn out when he gets here and I want the house to look nice for him. He's so great! I'm lucky...well, I'm blessed! Thank you, God, for all your MANY blessings! Please help them win tonight! I want a happy dh to come home to us! :D ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62196-11-11-2005-09-46-pm.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62232-11-11-2005-12-57-pm.html Fri, 11 Nov 2005 18:57:52 GMT Well, so far so good w/ the eating. Ice cream and 1/2 banana. I'm done until this afternoon where I'll probably grab a bag of baked lays or something small. I'm tired of feeling my fat roll over my pants. Gag! :sick: I just don't feel good about "me" today.........

But, other than my selfish insecurities - today is a great day! Christian is fun and we're about to go pick up our family Christmas photos from my mom. I'm excited. At least I look a little smaller in those pics than I did last Christmas (2 weeks after giving birth)!

Okay, my happy boy has turned on me. He's fussing as he eats his chicken and banana. Sometimes I wished he liked cartoons more! He'd rather play...which is great! But, right about now I could use a few minutes of silence. Selfish mommy! Of to dress him for the day. ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62232-11-11-2005-12-57-pm.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62249-its-friday-cold.html Fri, 11 Nov 2005 14:16:54 GMT Finally it's cold outside! Last week I could've worn a tshirt and shorts and been very comfy. Today, though...brrrrrrrrr! I'm so glad. (My hair does much better in cool weather! ha!)

Well, dh left early this morning for a meeting. Poor thing was up 2 hours before we were. Man! He was such a freak last night. First talking in his sleep. Then all over me in his sleep. Then...starts messing w/ the remote controls on his night stand and saying "Your dad wants the remote!" He hasn't been like that (talking/doing things in his sleep) in a couple years. Maybe he's stressed??
He won't be home 'til 10:30 tonight b/c of the basketball game, so...guess we'll go work for an hour or so, go shopping and might even manage to clean (not just straighten) this house!!!

Thankfully Christian is in a good mood this morning. Yesterday he was so fussy! He's teething so I'm sure that's it. His cough is gone for the most part and his nose is more clear. Yay! I hate it when he's not feeling good.

I'm going to eat good today! I will NOT go over my calories!!!! I won't! I've got to lose this weight! ugh! We'll see. ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62249-its-friday-cold.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62301-fussy-day-so-far-rambling.html Thu, 10 Nov 2005 19:10:48 GMT Happy 11 month birthday, baby boy!!!! Just one month 'til your big party!

Thank heavens I'm off work today. I'm feeling very free!!! I love it. Christian is pretty fussy though. Don't know what his deal is. Maybe just bored. Hmmm...but so far I've cleaned our bedroom and bathroom. Need to deep clean the shower still. I've done the dishes. Straightened up and re-straightened up a few times. And now...Christian's napping. SO, at least an hour is mine! All mine! I'm nibbling on low fat peanut butter thinking about what I want to do later. I'm still in the Christmas shopping mood, so maybe I'll finish up today. I've only got a few gifts left to buy. But, Christian just loves getting out. A trip to the mall would be great! Maybe we'll do that. Dh won't be home 'til 9:30 tonight. Bleh! I hate it when he's this busy. I'm sure he does too. At least we'll have him all to ourselves this weekend. Oh wait! He has basketball practice Saturday afternoon. Oh well. Maybe we'll go with him. He's such a great daddy and husband. I feel so lucky that he's mine. He works so hard for us and loves us w/ everything he is. The best part is that he tells and shows us how much he loves us! Some dh's don't do that. I never feel unloved or taken for granted. God has truly blessed me w/ him.

Okay, now I guess I'll start cleaning up the living room and kitchen. Then, I'll get Christian dressed for our day at the mall. I am eating okay today. Yesterday I BOMBED! Pizza and chocolate for dinner. UGH! Today is better. I've probably had 400 calories so far. Plenty left for snacks and dinner. I better not blow it! I've got a weigh-in tomorrow. ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62301-fussy-day-so-far-rambling.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62367-todays-new-day.html Wed, 09 Nov 2005 15:27:03 GMT I'm off work today for the most part. I'm going up there to do a few things, but I'm taking Christian and I'm pretty much looking like trash (tshirt and sweats). So....I'm totally unstressed today! Feels good. Things at work are getting better. God has totally worked it all out. I'm feeling pretty confident that everything will be more stable now. Thank you Jesus!

So, today - although I've messed up a little already by eating icing off of a cake (sugar addict!)...I'm going to eat really good.

Breakfast - icing 100 cals (stupid!)
Snack - banana 100 cals
Lunch - soup 100 cals
Snack - 1/2 peanut butter sandwich 150 cals
Dinner - roast & potatoes 400 cals
Snack - carrots 50 cals

Total PLANNED calories = 900
Free cals-300

Today WILL be better!!!! Tomorrow ds turns 11 mos. I'm in shock. ]]> curly http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/curly/62367-todays-new-day.html