by, 05-08-2010 at 03:40 PM (508 Views)
Feeling the need to ramble.
Today is Kindergarten registration day here. Thank goodness Steven misses the cut off date by a week or so because I'm not ready. He's been doing so many big boy things lately and I know I've not tried to push him. I pushed Lane. Lane walked early, potty trained early, did everything early because I pushed it... with Steven, I've let it go with the flow, because he was the "baby" and to me, he's still "the baby". How in the world is he almost 5? How the heck did that happen?! I'm still trying to figure it out. So here I am... 32, been married for 13 years, together for 15... my oldest son is going into MIDDLE school!! and I'm so glad that Steven misses the cut off date because I don't think I could handle him going to Kindy and Lane starting middle school on the same day. It would be too much for my poor heart. Do you ever look back and wonder where the years went?
Lane was playing with a friend of his the other day and it just brought me back in time. This friend of his is one of my best childhood friends' son. They were riding up and down the road that me and my friend used to ride on when we were that age and I can remember it SO clearly. I can close my eyes and go right back there again.
I think I'm having a mini mid life crisis! lol!!
Just like today... went to Hannah's grave to decorate and I've noticed that some of her letters are fading ( which makes me sad) and I said to Lane " there's no reason why it should be doing that, only the older tombstones do that.. the ones that have been here a few years" and then I stopped. Well.. it's been here for 11 years now. It seems like so long ago but yet, just yesterday.
I don't want to keep my boys little forever but I sure would love to have a pause button. Life is just too sweet right now. And this last year before Kindergarten... sigh... The last year of elementary school... sigh... I feel them just slipping away. Sweet, precious time.
Quick... someone hit the pause button!