My life changed today
by, 07-14-2007 at 11:50 AM (312 Views)
Not the life changing event that I expected, but a life changing event nonetheless.
My house was absolutely filthy. I told Dh that we needed to clean. It is hard for me to do a lot considering we want to go out tonight. So I decided I would wash all the clothes (two weeks worth). Well I started folding up the shirts and Dh reminded me that he would like to change the way that fold shirts. I was offended, but I begin to think. Why did I fold my shirts this way. Because my ex liked it. He liked the creases to be in the shirt, like they were when he purchased them. It took up much more space and did not make much sense. I thought about and figured out that I was holding to something so negative. My ex-boyfriend was horrible to me. He abused me mentally, emotionally, verbally, and physically. He cheated on me and left me because I could not give him the child that he wanted. So today I am letting go of that pain, the hurt, those thoughts of self doubt, the hopelessness. I am grabbing, securing and rejoicing in my marriage. I am in live with a wonderful man. We have been married almost three years, and I love him. He is everything that my Ex was not. Today I let all that go and I am better for it.
On another note: I have decided that being immobile for 6 weeks has changed me. I have no doubt that my level of independence will soar after this. The ability to take myself to the store will do wonders for me. I also think that almost any thing is possible. I am going to schedule my days better. My house will be cleaner. I will cook.
Last note: Dh and I decided that we are going to stay with our original deadline of November. We are going to do August Femera/IUI this cycle. Next cycle we are doing September Injectibles and the next October Femera/IUI and last Injectibles in November. So that is the plan. We will see what happened.