2 weeks since the loss of Addison. Scheduled check up at doctors......CANCER!!!!! OMG!

Well today I decided to go back to work... I know, I know. I should be resting and taking it easy, blah blah blah. Thats what my doctors are saying to me. But really? They tell me I am dying of cancer and only have 3 months or less and they expect me to stop my life completely. Although i think staying in the house for my last bit of time here on earth is stupid, i do agree that i should not have gone to work. It got really busy at one point and I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to please everyone. But for anyone who has ever worked in a place like walmart, you completely understand that pleasing everyone is physically impossible. And of course, i over done it. I got so busy with the register, stocking shelves, and just customer assistance that i forgot to just take a minute to sit and take a break. Actually, for a few hours there, I totally forgot that I have terminal cancer. In a way it was nice, forgetting that im sick. Or atleast it was nice until i completely ran out of gas. I crashed in the middle of helping a lady find her stupid easter peeps. Full on seizure. When finally came to, i was being held down by a couple of my co-workers and a customer. Had vomited blood everywhere, pretty bad nose bleed. So needless to say, I know that work is out of the question for me. But this does not mean im going to stop doing the things that i love. Im going to church tomorrow! i have been invited to preach again, so i am going to do that. Oh and one more thing... I have always wanted to go skydiving. So i have set up an appointment for friday to do that.. Im so excited!!! I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT WAIT TO JUMP OUT OF THAT AIRPLANE.. HAHAHA.