Six months later... A letter to my angel emily
Posted 09-19-2006 at 11:25 AM by bmwbrandi2005
To my sweet little Emmie...
six months and six billion tears later.... I am still missing you... still thinking of you every second of everyday. I love you more than words could ever describe... SIX MONTHS LATER.... wow.... it already feels like a lifetime. I fight to remind myself of every second we shared together- but it seems like everyday- my pain slowly clouds my memory. I want to remember everything.... the short lifetime that we shared together... all the kicks- all the hiccups... but now it seems like the only thing I can focus on- is the tremendous pain that I feel... I feel like i'm losing you all over again. Why did this have to heppen? I promised to be such a good mommy to you and to protect you... and I failed. I wish I would have just paid attention to what was going on- and realized how sick I was- how sick YOU were. I AM SO VERY SORRY Emily. I LOVE YOU more than anyone will ever know. I MISS YOU SO MUCH
love mommy
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Brandi... mommy to Emily Faith 
born silently March 19, 2006 (heart failure due to fifth's disease)
six months and six billion tears later.... I am still missing you... still thinking of you every second of everyday. I love you more than words could ever describe... SIX MONTHS LATER.... wow.... it already feels like a lifetime. I fight to remind myself of every second we shared together- but it seems like everyday- my pain slowly clouds my memory. I want to remember everything.... the short lifetime that we shared together... all the kicks- all the hiccups... but now it seems like the only thing I can focus on- is the tremendous pain that I feel... I feel like i'm losing you all over again. Why did this have to heppen? I promised to be such a good mommy to you and to protect you... and I failed. I wish I would have just paid attention to what was going on- and realized how sick I was- how sick YOU were. I AM SO VERY SORRY Emily. I LOVE YOU more than anyone will ever know. I MISS YOU SO MUCH
love mommy
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Brandi... mommy to Emily Faith born silently March 19, 2006 (heart failure due to fifth's disease)
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I am so sorry for your loss..I have found great comfort from the wonderful ladies here at FT on the loss boards...Thank you for sharing your story ( I read your other blog entries) with us here..I am glad you are proactive with the MODs....I can "feel" the love you have for your daughterPosted 09-19-2006 at 11:49 AM by robine
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Brandi. I am so sorry this is your life and not the life with Emily in it everyday. Thinking of you on this anniversary day.Posted 09-19-2006 at 03:58 PM by pattycakemom
