by, 11-01-2005 at 09:38 AM (175 Views)
Well I have had such a stressful few days. Being on bedrest was hard, I am not the kind of person to sit and watch TV 24/7 and look for things to do that doesn't involve moving around.
DH is doing really well, banking on the fact that our RE said that 2 of the sac's will probably not develop.....I am not that lucky to feel that much at ease right now. I guess the part that scares me so much is the immediate expense and the immediate family....it's not the fact that I couldn't love 3 children all at once. DH and I do not have family to help us out...and our friends are not really baby or kid people...most of them have children that are teenagers...way past the baby stage....so no matter how exciting 3 sound...it's just DH and I.
Things for DH and I have been going so well...it's like we got some good news for a change...something positive and it seems like we have found one another again. I really think that when your dealing with IF issues....it consumes your whole life...things get lost and everything gets clouded. It's not that I feel that just because we are PG that all of a sudden the pain of IF just disappeared.....but right now we finally have a goal we have waited for so long that is REAL.
I don't know how this will all turn out...I have no clue how we will feel a week from now..a month from now..or years from now....all I know that right now....things feel good....and they feel right.
I am trying to let this issues be souly in God's hands...which it is anyway..but I am trying to give it to him to worry about....I know there is nothing we can do to change any of this...it's up to him....This is truely a blessing...and I think in the end..it will be a blessing that was definately in disguise!!!!
Until the next post....