Beth - Va

I had some spotting last night and it made me really nervous. For some reason I am having a hard time wrapping my mind around this pregnancy and feeling that all is going to turn out okay. I think that it is because this is an a natural pregnancy and generally my outcomes with natural pregnancies are poor. We have seen the HB a couple of times and the baby has been measuring fine but I just feel like I am going to go to my ob appt in 2 weeks and something will have happened to the baby. I can't seem to talk my RE into doing an u/s to reassure me either. One of the girls that I work with also works for a womens outreach program and does u/s there and a couple people from work have gone there to have her do an u/s and I sort of want to do that for reassurance but then second guess myself because what if there is no HB at that time. My friend L is about 3 weeks behind me and she is sick as a dog and I feel fine and have no real symptom which is also freaking me out. I would give anything for some really bad nausea. I hope that I am just really over worrying and that everything will be fine. I know in my mond that once you see a HB the chance of miscarriage does decrease dramatically.

Gotta go Caiden is screaming.