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IVF #6 came and went, BFN Not sure what to do from here. The last IVF was not very good, we only ended up with one embryo on day 3. Emotionally and Financially spent

I am so bad at updating my blog The IUI didnt work I was pretty disappointed, I know the odds were low but I did have hope. Im currently on BCP to get another IVF started after the 1st of the year.

It seems kind of weird after all this time going to an IUI but at least there is still hope. So I go in tomorrow for an IUI at 11:30. I am hopeful

I cant believe Im starting again. I had my baseline today and everything looks good. I start Letrozole tonight!! This has got to be it!!

As soon as I got up this morning I looked out my window, and there it was. The flowers I planted in remembrance of the baby are blooming. One beautiful purple flower staring back at me. What timing!!! There are quite a few buds on it, so Ill watch the rest of them open up as my due date quickly approaches. Wow, how can one little flower mean so much. This date is really hard on me I knew it would be, I have been down for the last week but I keep expecting to start feeling a little better, but ...

Its such a sad sad day. I miss my Mom, Im tired of fighting this fight of IF and this year I know I should be PG What else can I say?!?!

Well the app. went well. I didn't have a pelvic exam ( I was told on the phone I would) but hey I'm not complaining. He just wanted to go over everything with me. See how I felt emotionally and physically. And the results from the Chromosomal studies were in. The baby ( I think as I was looking over his shoulder trying to read was a girl, I need to call, I got so into talking I forgot to ask) but 100% perfect. I know this is good and I should be happy that DH and I are not carriers of something ...

Well I had my D&C last night It was a very rough day/night!!! I have so many emotions running through me right now. Im glad the limbo is over but I feel so empty I feel guilty, was the D&C the right thing to do. What went wrong??? We did decide to have the fetus tested and Im really praying we get some answers from that. And that it might help give us some closure.

I am so touched by all the support I have got here. You have all been great!!!! I cant express how much it ...

First of all I had a wonderful u/s tech. I asked her if DH could come back with me and she said she was sorry but under the circumstances he was not allowed. I explained to her that we knew what was going on and this was our 3rd u/s. So she let him!!! We were talking on our way back to the room and I mentioned that this was an IVF baby. It turns out she has done IVF 7 times. She let us watch the screen the whole time, and explained everything to DH and I.

Do you all remember me telling ...

Well ladies I went to my Ob today. The heartbeat is gone They asked if Ive had any spotting or cramping at all. Nope I had no sign that something was wrong. They think the baby probably died a couple of weeks ago. They want me to wait a week and see if I miscarry naturally, if not I see them a week from today and I think we will schedule a D&C then. I just cannot believe this is happening. They mentioned doing some tests on the fetus so we know if it is Chromosomal issues. I asked why should ...