This may very well be my happiest day ever. Nothing spectacular happened. I'm just taking inventory of my blessings. My wonderful husband, my 2 happy, well-adjusted children, my sister. I also have the best mom in the whole world. I'm sitting here now listening to my husband and my kids happily playing Wii together. Does it get any better than this? I don't think so.

I have never liked New Years Day. It is a let down. Thanksgiving and Christmas are over and there are 2-3 long brutally cold months to endure.

It's all the harder today because I lost my 2 precious furbabies 'last year'. It feels like a final goodbye. I wasn't even ready to say goodbye to either of them.
I'm suddenly struck that it's been almost 5 months since sweet Chili passed. I suddenly can't believe she's gone. Yesterday I closed my eyes and imagined her soft warm head...

I swear I work in the friggin' Twilight Zone.
After the hell I've been suffering after being basically excommunicated, I put a call in to our HR Mgr in Mass. She listened to my concerns and complaints very seriously. I also told her it's either this call puts something in motion to improve things, or I quit. I wasn't sure if anyone would even care since I've only worked there 1.5 yrs.
HR immediately called my boss and she was on a call for 2 hours. My boss told me later that day that...

My sweet little angel Chili, we miss you so much. I know that it was your time and God wanted you in heaven to make heaven a brighter place. I just wish you could have stayed with us a little longer. But I know you were in pain and you were stressed and unhappy.
I know your sweet little soul is in heaven and you're running around in endless circles of joy and excitement like you used to do with us. I know you're waiting until the day when you are reunited with us. Until then please keep...

Rainbow Bridge
There is a bridge connecting Heaven and Earth.
It is called the Rainbow Bridge because of all its beautiful colors.
Just this side of the Rainbow Bridge there is a land of meadows,
hills and valleys with lush green grass.
When a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this place.
There is always food and water and warm spring weather.
The old and frail animals are young again.
Those who were sick, hurt or in pain are made...

I knew losing a pet would be painful, but it's much worse than I expected.
I know we did the right thing, but I miss her so much that I feel like I can't breathe sometimes.
I know we spent as much time with her as we needed last night, but I long to hold her in my lap again and have her give me more kisses. Just one more time. I miss her so much.

How long does this empty dead feeling last?

In remembrance of my much loved pet, my Chihuahua Chili. Born September 30, 1999 died August 11, 2008.
She had severe rheumatoid arthritis in her front leg and she broke the knee in one of her back legs. We had to put my poor little pet down tonight. We stayed with her the whole time and for a while after.

I miss her so much! I see her everywhere I look around my house. God, this is so hard. I am so so so so so sad.

RIP my wonderful companion. We shall meet...

Work is HELL and I don't think it's going to change. I wish I could figure out what to do. If I had the chance to go back, I don't think I'd blow the whistle. The only 2 people in the office who still talk to me both put in their notice Friday. How long can I work in an environment where my co workers don't talk to me?

Dad called today to say Mom is in the hospital. Thankfully it's only diverticulitis.
I worry about her so much since she was deathly ill in 2000 and suffered the 2 bouts with pancreatitis since.

I love my mom and she is my best friend. I can't even think of losing her. She has to be in until Sunday but luckily it doesn't appear she'll need surgery.

I love you Mom!

We got new neighbors in December. They moved back to IL from AZ.
They have 2 big shepherd type dogs. We have 2 dogs also.
My beef if that they let their 2 large dogs out of the side door and put them on a lead to poop. Well, I understand it's winter and all, but they the lead is long enough so that the dogs can poop on our property. We have a fence, so it's not in the back yard where my dogs will step in it, but it's on our property in front of the fence!

Am I being...