I'm going to spend the day doing yard work. It's going to be perfect weather, 65 degrees and sunny. I'm really looking forward to today.
Heather has a birthday party that Tim will take her to.

How did I get this old?

Jason had his meeting tonight about and has officially started in the high belt curriculum in Tae Kwon Do. He is now a red belt, 2 belts away from black belt.
The commitment level and the mandatory leadership classes he must attend just caught me off guard. How did my little baby boy become a high belt who will also be instructing lower belts?
I'm not ready for him to grow up this fast. I still think of him as my baby and I guess this was reality sucker punching me. I can't stop crying...

I've been praying to have a dream about my girls every since they both passed last year.
Jason woke up this a.m. at 3:00 and threw up. He came to my room an hour later to tell me he felt fine. After that I fell into a short sleep. I dreamed that Tim and I were sitting in bed talking and all of a sudden Chili jumped on the bed. In the dream I was aware that she had passed on. I opened my arms in huge excitement and Chili jumped into my arms. Right now I can still feel her warm little fine-haired...

Jamie told me today that my face and tummy look thinner and that I look good. She made my whole day.

13 days straight of The 30 Day Shred. Today I even added in my normal morning cardio and will do the Shred this afternoon.
Still succeeding at eating healthier too. It's hard to lose weight as you get older. I was hopeful that the weight would just fall off but it's not that easy. I'm not gonna give up! I look at this as my new lifestyle, so as long as it takes, it's ok as long as it gets me there. I want to transform myself. I hope to be a different person by summer.

I feel truly rested for the first time in a while. Amazing how clearly you can think and how much more +++ your attitude is with a good rest. Wow.

Starting day 8 of Jillian Michael's 30 day shred today. I'm not going to give up. I think I may even be getting to the point where I am ready to look at level 2! Now let's see if any weight comes off!

I have never liked New Years Day. It is a let down. Thanksgiving and Christmas are over and there are 2-3 long brutally cold months to endure.

It's all the harder today because I lost my 2 precious furbabies 'last year'. It feels like a final goodbye. I wasn't even ready to say goodbye to either of them.
I'm suddenly struck that it's been almost 5 months since sweet Chili passed. I suddenly can't believe she's gone. Yesterday I closed my eyes and imagined her soft warm head...

I can't snap out of this fog. Everywhere I look I see her. I can't even look in the backyard as my enduring image of her is lying in the grass sniffing into the wind.

I now realize she was sick for weeks because she was crying and panting every day when we left for work. At the time I just thought she was just being dramatic. I was also so angry at her for peeing all over the house lately. I was adamant that she was just doing it for attn. I never in a million years thought she had...

She's at peace now. She went very peacefully and we spent a good 20 minutes with her after she was gone. She has been released from her pain and suffering.
Tim has taken this particularly hard. He was always very attached to Bailey.

RIP my good friend. I find some peace knowing you have passed over the Rainbow Bridge.

You were a wonderful and faithful member of our family and you are greatly missed. I'll see you again someday.

1 hour til we leave.
You had plenty of special treats this a.m. You even laid on our bed with us for a time.

It's been a great run, but it's time for you to go off and join Chili over the Rainbow Bridge.

We love you forever and will see you again someday.