Audrey's mom

CD1 1/7 Sat

CD3 1/9 Mon
FSH = 7.9
6 antral follies, 1 leftover cyst
300iu gonalF pen for 3 days
lining = 3.1
e2 = 31

CD6 1/12 Thur
7 follies
300iu gonalF pen + 150iu luveris for 2 days
lining = 4.7
e2 = 165

CD8 1/14 Sat
7 follies
3mg. cetrotide
lining = 10.1
e2 = 352

CD10 1/16 Mon
7 measurable follies
300iu gonalF pen + 150iu luveris ...

CD1 3/30 Wed (AF shows 2 days late)

CD3 4/1 Fri
14 antral follies
FSH = 9.0
300iu gonalF pen for 3 days
e2 = 31

CD6 4/4 Mon
4 measurable follies
3mg. cetrotide
225iu gonalF pen + 75iu repronex for 2 days
lining = 6.1
e2 = 193

CD8 4/6 Wed
8 measurable follies
lining = 7.9
e2 = 468

CD10 4/8 Fri
11 measurable follies
225iu gonalF pen + 75iu repronex ...

Well, I have decided to go for the big one and do IVF. I can't believe I'm here, but I am. I respond so well to the meds that the dr. thinks I have an excellent chance. Besides, it doesn't make sense to try any more iui's. I can't endure 2 more failed iui cycles only to move to IVF. So, that's where I am. In IVF land.

The good part is that the IVF board is so supportive and busy. I really need that constant support. I won't start my meds until the end of March, so, in the ...

I don't know why it's so **** hard for me to get pg. There are some things I will never understand. I'm only giving Dr. A one more chance and then it's on to a different Dr. a different approach and hopefully another beautiful baby.

Well, here I am again, in IF Hell. The 2ww is a hideous concept that I wish I never had to endure. So it goes. I get up at the crack of dawn tomorrow am and drive to re's office for progesterone b/w. Then, I get to endure 7 more days of nail biting torture. Did it work? Did it not work? Should I have done something differently. Lay down more? Lay off the coffee? Say no to that glass of wine? Drive less? Crazy making all over again. God, give me strength and peace.

Oh, wouldn't you just know it. I called the re's office and I told them I was planning to cycle again at the end of this month and the nurse told me that depending on the day af shows that I may not be able to do cycle. The office is closing down for some days during Christmas & New Year's so I would not be able to be monitored on some of my cycling days. If af shows on the 28th or later, I should be able to proceed. So, it's out of my hands and into mother nature's hands this time. I'm ...

Last night was so much fun. We decorated the tree and living room while watching A Christmas Carol and drinking hot apple cider. It gets better-- we added a new christmas ball to the tree "Baby's 1st Christmas". Oh, how I loved to put that ornament on the tree. I also bought a mini picture frame ornament from Hallmark that holds a small photo and it says my 1st Christmas on the border. I have sent out all my Christmas cards but 2, still waiting for confirmed addresses. I have bought ...

Can I do this again? Can I go thru the shots, the waiting, the heartache, the cost and still come out with my sanity on the other side? I know I can, but it will not be easy. Having sex and getting pg are apparently 2 unrelated events for me. I don't know why God has chosen for me to have such a difficult time with conceiving. I know he has a plan, but it is beyond my comprehension what it is.

I can't believe how fortunate I am to have this little baby. She is so perfect and healthy and I still get surprised everyday that she is here. We have a baby room with a baby in it, what a concept. We always referred to her room as the baby room-- even when we were looking at the house for the first time. "This will be the baby room", and now it really is. This will be the best Christmas ever because Audrey is here!!

Well, here I am, 9/10/11 dpiui (yes, I had triple iui's this time-- what a trip) and worrying about the you know what showing up. I can't even say it for fear of jinxing myself. I feel so in-between right now. I still feel like I look pg-- have only lost half of my pg weight, I am 2 sizes up from my normal self. I was at babiesrus last nite and I saw this new mom in line in front of me and she had her newborn and husband and friend with her and her friend was just going nuts over how cute Audrey ...