LOL...I knew that would get your attention!!!

Ladies...after a long, well thought out decision, I've finally decided to stop working for someone else, and start up my own company!
(Did I actually just type that??)

It's scarey...I'm terrified, but I figured that the largest blue chip companies in the world started small somewhere, right??

I mean, when I was growing up, I had dreams and aspirations of being either this hot-shot lawyer...

31...but I don't feel so old!

Maybe my grandmother was right...age is but a state of mind!! LOL!

I feel better today!

For the first time in a long while, I feel as though I can survive whatever fate throws my way!

Vijay came home to see me yesterday...and I was not at home!! So he left my pressie and birthday card with my sister.

The card was sweet, and he got me a cream coloured suede jacket. It's gorgeous!
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Would you ever believe it...I'm in the 2WW...in a different sort of way.

In exactly 2 weeks, I'll finally know where my life is heading. Our 6 month separation "expires" on 7th June...and I'll know whether he still wants to be married to me or not!

I spoke to him yesterday...more like sobbed my heart out over the phone. I told him that I really love him, and that I felt that we should try again. 10 years from now, I don't want to be saying "If only..."...

It feels like forever since I last posted on the boards. I have missed you all tremendously, and each and every one of you has never been far from my thoughts.
I truly am sorry for having been so scarce…but sometimes I just never had the energy to post! Please forgive me.

Do any of you ever get the feeling that we are all mere puppets…dancing around as fate pulls at invisible strings?
I’ve had that feeling quite a bit these past few months…

Some of you...

My life has flipped 180 degrees in 365 days! Vijay & I have been separated for 3 weeks now, after a blazing row whereby I told him to sort his life out! I told him that I was tired of being taken for granted and that his friends and family took precedence over me!
I said some other stuff too, that I cannot possibly type out for fear of Dave or Ronen banning me, but I'm sure you guys get the gist!

I saw him twice(briefly) during the week after he left, and both times were...

... I got my first ever +HPT.

Tomorrow will be one year since my first + beta.



I still remember the pure elation I felt...So many dreams...all coming crashing down 2 months later...

God help me get through this Christmas...it's going to be the WORST one ever!!

Once again...I posted this on the IBB, so decided to paste in in here as well.


DH and I had a talk again on Sunday..."the" day...(remember I gave him some time to think about the separation). Anyway...he said that he really does not want for me to leave...and he does not want to leave either. He thinks that there is more than a great chance of our marriage surviving, and he's not prepared to let "a good thing go"

He also said that he is...

I just wondered whether anyone really believes in psychics, spiritual healers, astrologers, etc? Have you had any definite "proof" that whatever they said, has "come to be"

I have been to some previously, but all out of pure curiosity - sheer fun really. I cannot say that I can identify anything that really stands out as being true regarding what they said.

Due to all my emotional stuff recently, and I guess, through desperation I made an appointment...

The psychologist's office called!

Seems like they can fit me in next Wednesday.

Thank God!!!!

Thank you all so much for responding, and advising me on my previous post.

I thought I'd update my blog, with the same as my post on the IBB.

I wish I were Albus Dumbledore...so that I could wave my magic wand, and everything would be OK!! Sadly though...I'm just me...Anira...and I have to accept the fact that my life SUCKS!!!

DH & I tried to talk on Saturday...off course, once again,I did most of the talking!
Lately, he has been spending...