AmyA

Today has been much better. I was supposed to go to MOPS today with the kids and then a friend was going to take them back to her place for a few hrs so I could visit DH alone. I called her last night and told her I was just going to stay home and try to relax a bit because I'm not in the mood to go and be around a bunch of people right now, and another day would be better for her to take the kids. She then offered to take the kids with MOPS with her so I could be kid free from 9am-3pm. That I can handle! I went to see DH till 11:30am and now I'm gonna go force myself to lay down and not move until 2:30 when I have to go pick them up. My visit with DH was nice. I realize that it isn't really him I'm mad at. I know that he feels like crap and he's sick of lying helpless in the bed. It's just the whole situation getting me down and the kids acting like wild banshees last night was just the last straw. I can't wait til DH cames home and we can at least be a little closer to having a normal life back! Oh he got to sit in a wheelchair again today for about 45 min. I'm glad he was out of bed for a while. I can't wheel him around until they get clearance to take him out while he's still on the trach with oxygen. Soon they are getting him this thing called a trapeze that he can hook his arms into and he'll be able to scoot himself around on the bed a bit without help. Right now it's near impossible because he's unable to use his hands or wrists at all for support to move himself and he's still so weak. He really needs this muscle resistance.