AmyA

Christmas season is here and I miss DH so much. We used to have so much fun during the holidays. He loved to make me & the kids happy and take us to do fun things all together as a family. My heart hurts for him.

I am so blessed that my precious twins and new baby are here with me.

Today has been much better. I was supposed to go to MOPS today with the kids and then a friend was going to take them back to her place for a few hrs so I could visit DH alone. I called her last night and told her I was just going to stay home and try to relax a bit because I'm not in the mood to go and be around a bunch of people right now, and another day would be better for her to take the kids. She then offered to take the kids with MOPS with her so I could be kid free from 9am-3pm. That I ...

wow this delivery is getting so close. Last night I just really started feeling sorry for myself when I took the kids to the hospital with me to visit DH & they were being horrid, wrestling, not listening to me.. I felt like crap yesterday too, sore, with those awful shooting pains between my legs and down one of my front legs from the babies head pushing. DH is laying there so removed, watching tv and I'm about to burst into tears. The thought of doing all this myself just really sucks. I have ...

Well we aren't moving. The owner decided she didn't want to rent to anyone with pets. Oh well I guess it wasn't meant to be. I have more important things to focus on. My drs appt went fine today. I am 2 cm dilated, slightly effaced and baby is at -2 station. The dr could easily feel his head(no surprise because it feels like he's falling out sometimes!!).
Dh is likely having surgery again this week, maybe Thurs. We have decided that's it best to have them remove his left hand. It's so incredibly ...

I know the timing is terrible. There is a house for rent one street over that's less per month, has a shaded backyard(our current backyard has NO shade), brand new kitchen, ceramic tile & carpet. Our current landlord is sooo slow about fixing things and the a/c bill here is horrendous. She promised a couple years ago to fix some stuff and never did. Just recently she bought some tile which my FIL is installing because she never got around to it and she purchased some carpet and has gone back ...

I am feeling really happy today! I also feel excited about the baby coming soon and what a relief it is to be able to feel that. Up until recently I couldn't allow myself to but for some reason now I can. DH is so much more himself now and we can see an end in sight. Now that I know he'll be coming home(and he knows it) our outlooks are so much more +.

Finally he is closer to home and the kids & I can visit together! His hospital is now right down the road!! J & J got to see him today for the 1st time in 2 months and DH was so happy he cried. They weren't nearly as scared as last time and now that I can take them up there almost every day they will warm up to him again in no time. This move has done wonders for DH's spirits. Now he can at least focus on healing and coming home instead of just staying well(and out of ICU). He does have ...

My DH had his hand surgery today and still has both of his hands! He has one partial finger on his left and 2 partial fingers on his right but that's better than nothing. The dr still thinks he may need to have the left hand amputated but we're hoping not. He lost a lot of blood and is still bleeding a lot but they are giving him blood produxts and got his BP back up. I am just so happy because Dean told the surgeon to take off what he didn't think was save-able so I thought he would take the left ...

Well I called mid-afternoon and his bp top # was 96 and at 6pm it was 88, not awesome but much better than 60s/30s! What a rollercoaster. I know that there are always a couple steps back now and then but it sure doesn't make it any easier. It's weird talking to him and he's fine and then the next minute I'm scared I'm going to lose him again!! I wish he'd stop freaking us out!

Keep Dean in your prayers today. He is being moved back to ICU. His bp dropped and he has fever & vomiting. They are giving him some fluid and trying to get his bp up now. I will update later. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/deanpedersen