http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/ Infertility and Adoption online interactive support community for your family-building efforts. Information and discussion includes infertility, adoption, pregnancy, parenting and surrogacy issues. en Thu, 20 Jun 2013 04:11:45 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/ http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/76502-grow-embabies-grow.html Mon, 16 May 2011 13:08:42 GMT I am almost constantly thinking of these little embabies inside me. I keep praying for them to grow and develop properly. I am trying so hard to keep busy and not think about it, but my mind always seems to find its way back. I am visualizing the whole implantation and growth process everyday. ... I am almost constantly thinking of these little embabies inside me. I keep praying for them to grow and develop properly. I am trying so hard to keep busy and not think about it, but my mind always seems to find its way back. I am visualizing the whole implantation and growth process everyday. DH has been so sweet, he talks to the embabies and kisses my belly. He was wonderful during the ER and ET, I can't wait to see him as a father. DH and I are both holding our breath waiting to find out (5/24). We are going away that weekend for a friend's wedding so I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. We have discussed what happens next if this round of IVF doesn't work. We both agree that we want a family and we are looking at adopting. This doesn't mean we are going to stop trying on our own, but we are not sure when we would be able to get into another cycle at the military facility we go to since they are so popular. We are considering older children because we know it is unlikely we will get a newborn. We just have so much love to give and we don't care if they are our natural child or not. We know we are ready to be parents and start our family. ]]> airforcewife23 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/76502-grow-embabies-grow.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/76442-first-ivf-cycle.html Fri, 29 Apr 2011 15:06:28 GMT After almost 4 months of waiting patiently we started our IVF cycle this week. Wednesday, DH came with me to the baseline appointment. I woke up at 1:30 that morning unable to go back to sleep. I wasn't worried so much, but excited to see what was going to happen. The Dr said everything looked really good and it was a go. He said we would start our meds on Friday (today). I have been working extremely hard since January to become healthier. My bmi had creeped into the overweight category over the past year, I think because of the stress of ttc. My Dr told me in Nov last year to do the South Beach Diet because it is the "ultimate fertility diet". He said it was good for couples ttc because you almost eliminate all complex carbohydrates. It was really difficult to do because I love the sweets, but I did it and I am now 15 pounds lighter and int the normal range. I gave myself my first shot this morning and I am really excited to see how my follies are growing on tuesday when I go in for a check up. I have really good feelings about this cycle and I am not going to let anything bring me down. Its time to start hoping for the best and taking it one step at a time. :crossfing
:happyfory ]]> airforcewife23 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/76442-first-ivf-cycle.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/76142-tricare-rage-just-vent-session.html Fri, 18 Feb 2011 19:35:46 GMT I hate tricare so much. Why does military healthcare have to be so difficult? Why are there so many hoops to jump through? You would think they would want it to be easy for military families so they don't have to worry about calling 5 different numbers to get an answer. You would think that tricare online would be the same as tricare, well my friend you would be wrong. I was told today by a lovely tricare rep that tricare online is the medical group in that region and the tricare I was calling had nothing to do with filling prescriptions online and would I like to speak with Expresscripts. Let me back up, I am running out of prenatal vitamins (well done as of today) so I went to tricare online on monday and sent in a request that it be refilled. I got a lovely response saying it would be ready yesterday. Great! That was so easy! How silly of me to think that it was not that simple. Today I go to the refill pharmacy (because that makes sense right, getting a refill go to the satellite location where they refill) and the lady advised me that they saw that I had refills, but I needed to call it in. Oh, I said, I refilled it online. Then she replied "our computers do not talk to tricare online so we do not have your refill, you'll have to call it in, would you like the number?" Then I get the response from tricare that they are not associated with tricare online, does this make perfect sense to everyone else and I am just an idiot? This system is the most ridiculous system that I have ever had to deal with my entire life. I know they are just prenatal vitamins and I have no problem going to the store and getting them, but dang it, it is the principle of the thing. I know its easy to call it in and get it refilled but I figured if tricare online is advertising that you can get your prescription refilled through them it shouldn't be an issue. I told my doc when she put in the prescription that it was no big deal that I could just go buy them but she said "well if you can get them for free, why not?" And they wonder why their retention is so bad... Maybe its because they make everything so difficult and they have 5 different systems none of which talk to each other. ]]> airforcewife23 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/76142-tricare-rage-just-vent-session.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75988-christmas-bfp.html Mon, 20 Dec 2010 02:42:02 GMT I triggered yesterday with ovidrel and tomorrow is the IUI. I'm feeling a little nervous and scared about the whole process. I'm hoping that this will be the first and last of our IUI's but I also realize that not everyone is that lucky. I was such a chicken about the shot. I went into the bathroom and prepared the area and needle. I kept telling myself "just do it quick" but my arm wouldn't budge. So DH had to come in and do it for me. He did really well too because it was quick and painless. Good thing one of isn't a chicken! I keep wondering if I have already ovulated and the timing is off. I'm hoping that when we go in tomorrow that it will be perfect and everything will happen like its supposed to. I read somewhere online all these tips of what you can do to make your IUI successful and one of them was to visualize the actual fertilization process happening in your mind, well I have been doing that at least once a day for the past week and I also plan on doing it tomorrow afterward. I know it sounds like a lot of mumbo jumbo but mind over matter right? It doesn't hurt to do it anyway. I'm hoping with all our bd-ing and the IUI that this will be the month for us! Here goes nothing!
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:crossfing ]]> airforcewife23 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75988-christmas-bfp.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75981-double-baby-shower.html Tue, 14 Dec 2010 22:52:25 GMT Well, lucky me, I got to go to a double baby shower today at dh's office and when I was walking in, I saw another girl that was pregnant! I am so sad because once again everyone had to make comments about how we are so ready to have children and its our turn next and when are dh and I going to have babies. I hate those questions and comments I just want to ask them something equally rude but I haven't come up with it yet. I know they don't know what is going on with us, but it is still very frustrating. I am truly very happy for these two beautiful mom-to-be's but I just don't want questions or comments directed at me anymore. I think if they only knew what was going on they wouldn't even dare to say a word. We are very private and we don't want anyone to know about our medical issues. So until it actually does happen to us, I guess I have to get over all the comments and questions from everyone. It also doesn't help that I am coming down from a clomid high and my hormones are running wild. 3 more days until IUI! ]]> airforcewife23 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75981-double-baby-shower.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75945-december-iui.html Fri, 26 Nov 2010 14:04:06 GMT I am getting really excited for my cycle this month. I am hoping and praying that this will do it. Of course I am still hoping for it to have happened naturally this cycle but it doesn't seem very likely since DH was TDY for the week when I was most fertile and came back the day before I ovulated. We came to visit his family for Thanksgiving and everyone has been making comments about when we are going to start having children. I try to just say we are getting in a lot of practice first ;) but sometimes the comments still sting. Not as much anymore though. Funny how one little innocent question can hurt so much sometimes. Hopefully we can give DH's grandma a nice Christmas present and tell her we have a baby on the way. She would be absolutely thrilled! I'm not sure exactly how the IUI is going to work as every dr's office seems to do it differently. What an exciting time for us and I can't hardly wait to find out what is going to happen next! ]]> airforcewife23 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75945-december-iui.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75860-re-visit.html Thu, 04 Nov 2010 16:46:31 GMT My initial visit was yesterday and I met with Dr. Combs and Dr. Retzloff. I thought it was just going to be like a "hello, this is what our program does, these are the further tests you need, etc" but it was completely different! First we went over our history of TTC and then our past and current medical issues. Then Dr. Combs said "Okay well we are going to take you next door to do an ultrasound to take a look at your ovaries" What?? I didn't know we were going to be doing that! It was a good surprise because I definitely want to get going. And I was shocked that they focused more on me than DH. I thought it would be kinda equal since he has a low sperm count. Anyway, that's when Dr. Retzloff came in and talked to us for awhile. So, after the u/s they both came back into the other room and talked to us about starting with IUIs for 3 months since they feel that DH is in the moderate range as far as low sperm count. I'm happy but scared at the same time because I want to start the process but the odds are not in our favor for IUI. They said after 3 months we could look at IVF. I told them we would be interested in doing IVF and are ready to go whenever we can get in! So they left us with saying, call us once you start your next cycle so we can start monitoring! I have never wanted my AF to come so bad in my life! ]]> airforcewife23 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75860-re-visit.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75847-initial-re-appointment.html Mon, 01 Nov 2010 21:10:47 GMT Well, after playing phone tag last week with WH infertility clinic, I got THE phone call on friday. They asked if we were available to come in on Wednesday of this week. I was amazed and excited. I thought for sure that we would not be getting a phone call for our initial visit until after the... Well, after playing phone tag last week with WH infertility clinic, I got THE phone call on friday. They asked if we were available to come in on Wednesday of this week. I was amazed and excited. I thought for sure that we would not be getting a phone call for our initial visit until after the holidays! We both can't wait to go and get the process started. And not to mention our families are pretty excited too. ]]> airforcewife23 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75847-initial-re-appointment.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75823-new-infertility.html Wed, 27 Oct 2010 13:32:20 GMT When I pictured my life I never thought my DH and I would have to go through this. But I am sure no one does! My DH has taken it especially hard. He keeps saying it is all his fault. I'm not sure how to comfort except that I keep telling him this is our problem and we are in it together. He says that I will never understand and he's right I won't. Even before we had initial testing done I felt like something was off and I would try to change our diet or try different things to help us. At each suggestion he would question it and would be against it. Does anyone else have this problem? I think he thought I was just getting crazy ideas off the internet to try, and maybe I was ;) but just because its on the internet doesn't mean it doesn't work right? Even when I told him that he should try taking more Zinc, L-Carnitine (sp), Selenium, he questioned that too saying that he was already taking it in his multivitamin. I guess we just have two different views, he is cynical about advice unless it comes from a doctor and I want to try anything because what do we have to lose? Its getting better, now that we are going to see an RE at Wilford Hall, I think he is more open to trying different things, like Fertilaid. I'm not sure if it will work, but it can't hurt right? I suggested the other day that he should stop drinking diet drinks and any drink with splenda, sucralose, sacchrin (sp), etc because I read that it can affect sperm production, but he didn't really say whether he believed it or not and said we should wait and talk to the RE about it and see what he says... Maybe I just need to gather more evidence, put it into a report and present it to him so he can see that its just not a crazy internet search! :tongue: Not like my past ones anyway! ]]> airforcewife23 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/airforcewife23/75823-new-infertility.html