My Update & Quest...(Another on #8)

[Michellei]

Today is day 37 of my cycle.

I have taken several pg. tests...all are neg. They have been the $store tests...so I hope they are accurate. No wait, I hope they aren't for my sake!

My boobs have been sore and I've been having vivid dreams every night for the last 2 weeks. This is something that happens when I know my progesterone is up..meaning a pg. has occurred or AF is on her way soon. I'm also peeing a lot.

But, why haven't I started yet if I'm not pg? What the heck is going on? I have a feeling that I ovulated later than what I originally had thought. But, this is just getting frustrating ya know!?

[BC-DKNY]

ugh yea....frustrating for sure!!!!

late O'tion can definitely explain things. it could also account for a late implantation if a conception occurred.

do you have any idea when you might've O'd?

[Michellei]

Hi Dina,

I have no idea about ovulation. I thought I had ovulated around day 15. But, then I had more eggwhite mucus around a week and a half to two weeks ago. So, maybe that was ovulation.

At this point, I want one of two things...either a pos. test or AF. I've got to know what is going on here and have some closure on this cycle.

I had a m/c in June...this would be my 2nd cycle since then. So, we've been ttc obviously. But, when I get a neg. preg. test and a very late AF it just makes the pain of the m/c come back. I keep thinking "you know, I HAD a baby in there & it was taken from me...and now I have to go through this!".

I'm very depressed...my house is a wreck. I cannot find the energy to clean it. That is not like me at all. So, I desperately need something to happen...SOON.

BTW...Is it possible that I'm taking the $$Store tests wrong? It comes with a dropper that you drop 4 drops of urine on the test stick. But, I've just been putting it in the stream of urine when I go to the bathroom.

[DMS721]

I know the first two cycles I had after my miscarriage were crazy. I thought for sure I was pregnant on my second cycle. I had all the symptoms, my temps stayed up, etc. However, I was just late, and I was crushed. My doctor said that it was very common for that to happen, because it takes a few cycles for things to get back to normal. That was 8 months ago, and now I have been referred to see an RE because I haven't ovulated since that cycle (and most of my cycles are running about 60+ days now.) It is just so frustrating because you finally get pregnant, only to have it taken away from you, and then can't get pregnant again.

[BC-Maura]

Hi Michelle: Ugh.... I feel for you, so much. The waiting is excruciating and the focus on all things ttc is intense. My guess is that you did ovulate later than you thought and so either AF will come later or you'll get a ++HPT later.

Would you consider temping? I apologize if I should know this! I found it comforting to have at least that measure of control over something that is ultimately not controllable. In other words, knowing where I was in my cycle helped me a bit.

Hoping that you get a resolution soon. I don't know the answer about the $$ store tests. Maybe you could try another brand and see what happens?

Good luck and please let us know how things go++++++++++
Maura

[Kim C2]

Hey girl...just wanted to wish you luck!!! BTW, I also buy the exact tests you are talking about. I also get the same looks from the cashier every time. LOL Last time she even said "looks like someone wants to make sure". If only she knew, huh?

Anyways - I would not put them directly under a stream...I would use the dropper as directed. I would think it would get on the test window?? Try one using the dropper in the morning! I'm not sure how reliable they are. I've always said if I got anything appearing to be a *true* ++ result, I'll go immediately & buy a better brand.

Hope to hear your good news soon!

Kim C.
TTC after tubal reversal surgery

[Michellei]

The last test I took was Thrus morning. So, I'm out of tests & I'm so leary of another BFN that I can't even make myself buy a test. I will if AF doesn't show by Monday I suppose.

Still no AF...all the signs are there. I am feeling kind of crampy today. So, maybe she'll show up today.

I'll certainly keep you ladies updated. I'm SO glad that you all understand.

Maura, you had asked me about temping. I did the BBT thing for 6 yrs. before conceiving DD #1..(both my DD's were conceived w/o bbt). I did feel a sense of control at that time. But, it was driving my DH crazy because I was obsessed with knowing what was going on. Of course, I am at the moment as well. But, I just keep it hidden inside now. If I was temping, he would know that I was thinking about were I am in my cycle. I hope that makes sense. I do check my cervix daily. And, it has gone from low, and hard..to medium (not low..not high) and sort of soft. So, I have no idea what that means.

Today, I am cleaning my house and concentrating on getting my attitude better. The rest of my family shouldn't suffer because I can't get out of this depressed funk.

[Michellei]

Ok, I broke down while getting groceries this evening. But, this time I bought an EPT test. For the first couple of min. it looked neg...although where the positive line is supposed to show, I saw a very faint line on the one side. So where a line is supposed to be ___ I saw only the left side _ of the +. The up and down line was there. The left side of the cross was faint...the right side was not there. I hope that makes sense.

Anyway, after 30 or 45 min...I could see the rest of the line. But, I have to wonder if it was just an evaporation line. Aren't the +/- tests notorious for evap. lines?

So, that's it. Really no more than before. But, I have two more tests left. One is another EPT +/- and the other is an EPT digital.

9/16 UPDATE:
This morning I took another EPT with FMU. 15 min. later a line to cross the + was there. But, it was very light. DH saw it too. We are leaning toward an evaporation line. I'm calling the doc. this am. I'll get some blood work done. I'm really sick of this whole saga. It's not getting old...it IS old.

[BC-DKNY]

jeez michelle...i really feel your pain. i've gone thru this myself. at some point (about 8 mos before i finally conceived i totally swore off hpts. i came to the conclusion that it was less devastating to just get AF than to have the heartbreak of seeing neg after neg hpt.

when i finally did get pg i was going into 5 days late for AF and still wouldn't go buy the test. i had every reason to believe i was pg but couldn't bring myself to take the test. maura finally convinced me to go get a test.....LOL

anyway, i totally understand all of your emotions. it's almost like you can't think straight once you get to this point. nothing else matters.

please keep us posted