Still haven't tested...

[LAMom]

Just in case you were wondering, Maura (& others), I didn't get a test and so I still don't know anything more definitive. (Can you believe that I just haven't had the time to get to the store for one!???)

I'm still feeling the same, with only one symptom change. Yesterday afternoon, I started having alot of clear, stretchy (fertile?) mucous?!!! I wonder if I didn't ovulate at all yet??? Isn't that strange?....

Hopefully, I'll have hpt results for you all tomorrow.....

Keep thinking those +++++ thoughts,
LAMom

[BC-Maura]

Thanks for the update, LAMom! Will keep checking for another one!

Good luck+++++++++++
Maura

[JerseyGirl16]

LAMom!!!!! OMG - I am pulling for you. Please let us know how it goes if you test! I am thinking positive thoughts from you. You can be the spark of light in my dark little place right now.
++++++++++++

[LAMom]

I tested this morning wth f.m.u. and got a clear negative.

I was hoping that I wasn't hoping too much already! (sigh!) But, I was already getting my hopes up again.

Oh well, it was worth a "shot" anyway.

JG, it's good to see you on the board! Are you feeling okay? (Physically and emotionallY)? I've been thinking about you, especially this past week. Hope that things continue to improve for you!!!

I'm nearing the end of the "ttc" window. We had originally planned to try only through this past June....and, still here I am! I think that I'm getting more used to the idea of stopping.....with each additional hopeful, then negative, cycle. It's starting to "feel" more like the right thing. If that makes sense.

But, I've got to be honest with you all......if I would've seen a little "+" sign this morning, I think I would be jumping up and down right now!! Ha. Ha.

Thanks for the help, Maura.......I still don't know about that weird brown spotting. I'm due to see the doc next month anyway......so, I guess it's okay to wait until then, if it's a polyp or such?

LAMom

[JerseyGirl16]

LAMom, I am so sorry for the negative!! You never know, though - you might be too early? I know what you mean about nearing the end of the ttc window... hard to know when to stop. It becomes a quest and stopping feels unfamiliar and wrong. Whatever you decide though, I hope you find peace with. What does your dh say about continuing or stopping?

I am struggling a little emotionally, but physically I am fine. The D&E was very easy. They even gave me a local for the IV and I didn't even feel them put it in. I fell asleep and woke up and it was over. When they were waking me up, I asked if it was over. The nurse said yes and I started to cry. It may have been the first time I really cried after finding out that it was a miscarriage. My whole experience seems so surreal to me. I am doing ok, though - I know it could be worse.

Anyway, thanks for asking about me, even in the midst of your own disappointment. You are wonderful.

Love,
Me

[BC-Maura]

Oh, I'm sorry, LAMom. I'm wondering if you ovulated later than you thought? Because if you O'd when we thought you did (around 7/23-24), you should have already had AF by now. Did you BMS when you saw the ewcm this week? So frustrating not knowing what's going on!

Keep watching your signs and BMS if you see any more ewcm. And yes, waiting until next month to discuss the brown spotting with your doctor should be fine.

Thinking of you -- Keep us posted+++++++++
Maura

[BC-Maura]

JG: {{{HUGS}}} Sending you healing +++++++ for your spirit and your body.

Let us know how you're doing+++++++++++
Maura

[jossy]

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i am jossy, i live in Bratislava, Slovakia, i am a computer Engineer, A Doctor in bratislava said my Sperm count is 20 million, (asthenospermia - sperm are present but can't swim normally). what can i do so that it can swim mormally. I have been taking Vitamin C 250mg X 4 and Vitamin E 200 mg x 2, you can reach me at: jossy_ibe4u@yahoo.com.

Thanks

Jossy

[jossy]

(asthenospermia - sperm are present but can't swim normally). Sperm concentration: 20 million spermatozoa per mL ,Motility: (grades d )

[LAMom]

Well, I just figured I'd check in and give you my latest update.....which is really still NO update, I guess.

I wonder if I didn't ovulate until later.....that is definitely possible. However, due to the fact that dh was out of town on business, there was no chance of hitting that later "o" with bms.......it it didn't work when I "thought" ovulation happened, then it didn't work at all. This past week, though, with the change in CM, we did give it a try (2).........so, I guess until we see AF we'll not really know where I am in this cycle.

I haven't seen any more spotting at all, but I did wake up this morning with a terrible lower back ache. I also had some cramping last night that felt like ovulation cramping. (or AF?) WHO KNOWS?????

Maura, I'll bet that you wish, when you see wacky cycles like mine, that you could get us on the temping train, huh? I don't know why I have so much trouble temping and charting...... It's almost like I have a mental block about it or something. Truthfully, I think that it's just the strange schedule that I keep sometimes, work late, sleep late, etc. etc.

Thanks so much for your encouragement too, JG! I know that you have so much going on! I am glad to hear that the D&E went okay. I wondered if it would hit you hard after it was over. It makes sense, as you really had to be so numb through much of the weeks prior. You have been through SO much. And, I know that you KWIM when I talk about giving up t.t.c. I guess that I worry more about having a 'regret' about something than anything else. "What IF we had tried a little bit longer, would it have made a difference?" I am so motivated by my own 'hunch' or intuitiion, that we would always have three children. Is that crazy? However, more and more, I realize the strain that it puts on grown children to care for an aging parent (I am there too), and I don't want to put that burden on a 20-something-ish child, either.....when I turn 65! And, as more time passes, I am starting to "feel" my age and feel like maybe I really am done with pregnancy, childbirth and those toddler days again. (I'm conflicted, I guess you'd say! ) As far as dh, he is really leaving alot of it up to me. He would be really happy to have one more but he also doesn't want me to go through too much-physically or emotionally-to make that happen. Often, he will say, "well, what do YOU think about it, how are YOU feeling about it?" He was telling me of a co-worker the other day whose wife is newly pregnant with their 5th child, (and they've all been born pretty closely together) and he almost sounded envious! So, I definitely think that he is one of those dh's that would be an awesome father to a big "flock" of little ones! LOL!

So, Maura and JG, I really DON'T KNOW how much longer I'll be checing in for ttc advice.....we may wait things out for another few months. But, I think that I'm getting ready to move onto another area of interest pretty soon. This is making me a little more "crazy" than I'd even realized!

Thanks to both of you for your concern and ++++++thoughts,
I'll let you know if I have any "news" to report,

((((((( Hugs )))))))))
LAMom