Maybe next year, may be not!

Cibele · 12-23-2006, 10:59 AM

Yesterday I was watching Sex and the City, the episode that Charlotte and her husband decide to have a baby. Looking at them all excited made think about the day DH and I decided that we were ready. The day I took my last BCP he celebrated the beginning of a new phase. We were so excited that we told everybody that we would start trying (bad mistake). I called my mom, she was so happy. I Went to pick up my prenatal pills and I was SURE, so SURE that by the time I was done with those 100 pills I was going to be PREGNANT.... Well, we all know that was not the truth... We were naive, but I am glad we were.. .At least we enjoyed that time, it was magical just to contemplate the possibility of having a baby, not knowing about all these little details I know now (m/c, SA, short LP, low progesterone). Now, after 2 years things are not that romantic , but we are still very excited over the idea of being parents but now we I can't bring myself to be as optimistic and naive as I once was... Even after my m/c last year I was still SURE that by this Xmas we would be either Pg or with a baby already. I am still hopeful, but I can't honestly say that I am SURE of anything on this baby making journey anymore. For me has been the end of the innocence...
Maybe next year I will get PG, MAYBE NOT... So what?
Good Luck to all of us that did not get to fufill our motherhood dreams this year! May 2007 be different and if not, there is always 2008...
congratulations for of you that got you BFP, how exciting!!!!!

That is a song that I love that is somehow related to what I wrote today

Remember when the days were long
And rolled beneath a deep blue sky
Didnt have a care in the world
With mommy and daddy standing by
When happily ever after fails
And weve been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers dwell on small details
Since daddy had to fly
But I know a place where we can go
Thats still untouched by man
Well sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
You can lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence
O beautiful, for spacious skies
But now those skies are threatening
Theyre beating plowshares into swords
For this tired old man that we elected king
Armchair warriors often fail
And weve been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers clean up all details
Since daddy had to lie
But I know a place where we can go
And was away this sin
Well sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair spill all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence
Who knows how long this will last
Now weve come so far, so fast
But, somewhere back there in the dust
That same small town in each of us
I need to remember this
So baby give me just one kiss
And let me take a long last look
Before we say good bye
Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence

**BC-QueenValerie** · 12-23-2006, 01:50 PM

Hello*!!!!! {{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}} I sure hope that your IF journey brings you wonderful news early in 2007*!!!!

~QueenValerie~
cd=21

JAS · 12-23-2006, 06:52 PM

Cibele, for me I have thought maybe next year for the last 23 years. I am definitely the only one here that I know of that has tried for that long. For you, don't be discouraged. You seem to be in the normal time frame of IF issues. Everyone here has waited around that time and now look at all the BFP's this week. You have to keep hoping, that is the only thing that will keep you trying. If you lose hope, you have nothing. So just hope until one day, it is actually reality. It will not be long. HUGS, JAS

sarahp · 12-23-2006, 08:24 PM

well written my friend, and i hope that 2007 is the year all your dreams come true.

Writinit · 12-23-2006, 09:09 PM

Cibele, that was all really well put.
I hid all 97,000 photo holiday cards from my friends of their adorable kids... kids about the age mine was supposed to be this Christmas. I thought it would all be different.
Nobody can control life, but when you're looking around and all your friends and family get to get prg and have healthy babies... it's so hard to swallow.
Part of me is P'd that we weren't more aggressive about IF earlier on... but like you said, we probably enjoyed our life more in naive bliss.
best of luck to you in 2007

**BC-Maura** · 12-24-2006, 06:11 AM

{{{HUGS}}} Cibele... I know just what you mean ... when I first bought TCOYF, I did it because I thought it was fascinating that you could tell fertility from body signs .. little did I know that book would become my bible as I headed down the IF path

.

BUT! Most people who undergo fertility do ultimately have success, so the odds are in your favor. Let's hope 2007 is the year you and everyone else here has success.

Best of luck to all!
+++++++++++++++++
Maura

Cibele · 12-24-2006, 09:09 AM

Thanks girls, I am optimistic, but cautiously optimistic! I know just to well now not to bet it all in one year, but I am not giving up on hat little thing called HOPE. Not even close!!

thanks for all the support!

12-23-2006, 10:59 AM	#1 (permalink)
Cibele Registered User Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Kansas Posts: 426	Maybe next year, may be not! Yesterday I was watching Sex and the City, the episode that Charlotte and her husband decide to have a baby. Looking at them all excited made think about the day DH and I decided that we were ready. The day I took my last BCP he celebrated the beginning of a new phase. We were so excited that we told everybody that we would start trying (bad mistake). I called my mom, she was so happy. I Went to pick up my prenatal pills and I was SURE, so SURE that by the time I was done with those 100 pills I was going to be PREGNANT.... Well, we all know that was not the truth... We were naive, but I am glad we were.. .At least we enjoyed that time, it was magical just to contemplate the possibility of having a baby, not knowing about all these little details I know now (m/c, SA, short LP, low progesterone). Now, after 2 years things are not that romantic , but we are still very excited over the idea of being parents but now we I can't bring myself to be as optimistic and naive as I once was... Even after my m/c last year I was still SURE that by this Xmas we would be either Pg or with a baby already. I am still hopeful, but I can't honestly say that I am SURE of anything on this baby making journey anymore. For me has been the end of the innocence... Maybe next year I will get PG, MAYBE NOT... So what? Good Luck to all of us that did not get to fufill our motherhood dreams this year! May 2007 be different and if not, there is always 2008... congratulations for of you that got you BFP, how exciting!!!!! That is a song that I love that is somehow related to what I wrote today Remember when the days were long And rolled beneath a deep blue sky Didnt have a care in the world With mommy and daddy standing by When happily ever after fails And weve been poisoned by these fairy tales The lawyers dwell on small details Since daddy had to fly But I know a place where we can go Thats still untouched by man Well sit and watch the clouds roll by And the tall grass wave in the wind You can lay your head back on the ground And let your hair fall all around me Offer up your best defense But this is the end This is the end of the innocence O beautiful, for spacious skies But now those skies are threatening Theyre beating plowshares into swords For this tired old man that we elected king Armchair warriors often fail And weve been poisoned by these fairy tales The lawyers clean up all details Since daddy had to lie But I know a place where we can go And was away this sin Well sit and watch the clouds roll by And the tall grass wave in the wind Just lay your head back on the ground And let your hair spill all around me Offer up your best defense But this is the end This is the end of the innocence Who knows how long this will last Now weve come so far, so fast But, somewhere back there in the dust That same small town in each of us I need to remember this So baby give me just one kiss And let me take a long last look Before we say good bye Just lay your head back on the ground And let your hair fall all around me Offer up your best defense But this is the end This is the end of the innocence

12-23-2006, 08:24 PM	#4 (permalink)
sarahp 10000-15000 post ace of hearts Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: MA/CT border Posts: 11,779	well written my friend, and i hope that 2007 is the year all your dreams come true. __________________ Sarah (29) & Bobby (29) Cami ~ 3yrs old Adam ~ 13 months

12-24-2006, 06:11 AM	#6 (permalink)
BC-Maura Board Coordinator Join Date: Jan 2002 Posts: 12,945	{{{HUGS}}} Cibele... I know just what you mean ... when I first bought TCOYF, I did it because I thought it was fascinating that you could tell fertility from body signs .. little did I know that book would become my bible as I headed down the IF path. BUT! Most people who undergo fertility do ultimately have success, so the odds are in your favor. Let's hope 2007 is the year you and everyone else here has success. Best of luck to all! +++++++++++++++++ Maura

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12-23-2006, 01:50 PM	#2 (permalink)
BC-QueenValerie Come play at the FT Diner Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Detroit Area Posts: 4,553	Hello!!!!! {{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}} I sure hope that your IF journey brings you wonderful news early in 2007!!!! ~QueenValerie~ cd=21

12-23-2006, 06:52 PM	#3 (permalink)
JAS 1000-4999 post queen of hearts Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Sunny CA Posts: 1,271	Cibele, for me I have thought maybe next year for the last 23 years. I am definitely the only one here that I know of that has tried for that long. For you, don't be discouraged. You seem to be in the normal time frame of IF issues. Everyone here has waited around that time and now look at all the BFP's this week. You have to keep hoping, that is the only thing that will keep you trying. If you lose hope, you have nothing. So just hope until one day, it is actually reality. It will not be long. HUGS, JAS

12-23-2006, 09:09 PM	#5 (permalink)
Writinit Registered User Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: NC Posts: 1,492	Cibele, that was all really well put. I hid all 97,000 photo holiday cards from my friends of their adorable kids... kids about the age mine was supposed to be this Christmas. I thought it would all be different. Nobody can control life, but when you're looking around and all your friends and family get to get prg and have healthy babies... it's so hard to swallow. Part of me is P'd that we weren't more aggressive about IF earlier on... but like you said, we probably enjoyed our life more in naive bliss. best of luck to you in 2007

12-24-2006, 09:09 AM	#7 (permalink)
Cibele Registered User Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Kansas Posts: 426	Thanks girls, I am optimistic, but cautiously optimistic! I know just to well now not to bet it all in one year, but I am not giving up on hat little thing called HOPE. Not even close!! thanks for all the support!