Cibele

twiggy · 10-14-2006, 02:12 PM

Hi Cibele - Just been wondering how are u doing?? I ve been thinking of u? Are u in the middle of a cycle?

Cibele · 10-15-2006, 11:55 AM

Hi Twiggy, it is so nice of you to think about me. Unfortunately it is cd 2 for me today, AF showed up yesterday with full force! part of me is ok with it because I am used of failed cycles by now, but this month is particularly hard, Oct 22nd will be already 1 year from my m/c (I can't believe it) and my niece is celebrating her first b-day the very same day. They are planning a big party that I have to go, I guess I'll be having my own pity party inside of me.
Little by little I am losing the hope that it will happen the easy for us and I am tying to cope with that idea so that I can move on to the next level. I am in the process of looking for jobs and I am focusing on fertility friendly states such as IL and MA as the places I want to go to next (IF affects our entire life, doesn;t it?). I guess that is my new way to "take charge of my fertility" as I feel no desire o temp, OPK... this month. Next month is my b-day and than x-mas, new years.... oh so hard to through it all again childless, like a barren woman!

Friday I came back from my visit to the NIH (national institute of health) I had such an amazing time there. Professionally speaking I had one of the highlights of my carrier as a scientist. I was invited by a Nobel prize winner to join his lab as a post doctoral fellow. In my plain ride back home I felt so good about myself, only to get home to see some spotting and have my whole self steam crushed . this week I stood up in front of very important people as a very confident women and ironically I felt the least of the women at the glimpse of a blood stain on my underware. How can this be? I guess we cannot have it all, only if I could choose!
sorry , I had to let it all out
thanks again

Cibele · 10-15-2006, 11:56 AM

How are you doing?

I hope you are in a better place than me today

twiggy · 10-15-2006, 09:58 PM

Cibele - so sorry to hear that the witch showed up . Dont u just hate her!!
Was this a clomid cycle ?? Are u starting another one? If u dont mind we asking

Im so proud to hear about your acheivements. ITs incredible that u will be working with a Nobel prize winner . WOW - Its amazing. It is great atleast one part of your life is going well. Hopefully the other side will follow soon. I know u have a child just waiting to happen ... Hang in there

Im in my fourth month and finally beginning to believe this is really going to happen.
IF takes away a lot of things from u ... BUt we all hopefully heal eventually!

DO keep in touch

Cibele · 10-15-2006, 10:26 PM

I don't mind at all you asking. It was NOT a clomid cycle. Clomid its not for me, It made O even later than normal. As for this cycle I think I'll seat this one out... just need a break.
I though you were Pg but I was not sure. Congratulations one more time. All the best. How's the pregnancy so far? do you know the sex?

I went to a funeral today, a 5 month old baby. This friend of mine and I got PG together. I lost my baby and she found out at 18 weeks that the baby had severe heart problems. She fought for 5 months but lose the Battle last October 12th. It was so so sad to see that little girl and her parents today. My friend gave a hug and told me: Our kiddos are in heaven together now! I couldn't not help , I just set there and cried. Please pray for my friend , her name is Sarah and her little girl was Ali.

10-14-2006, 02:12 PM	#1 (permalink)
twiggy 1000-4999 post queen of hearts Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: southern california Posts: 3,221	Cibele Hi Cibele - Just been wondering how are u doing?? I ve been thinking of u? Are u in the middle of a cycle?

10-15-2006, 11:55 AM	#2 (permalink)
Cibele Registered User Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Kansas Posts: 426	Hi Twiggy, it is so nice of you to think about me. Unfortunately it is cd 2 for me today, AF showed up yesterday with full force! part of me is ok with it because I am used of failed cycles by now, but this month is particularly hard, Oct 22nd will be already 1 year from my m/c (I can't believe it) and my niece is celebrating her first b-day the very same day. They are planning a big party that I have to go, I guess I'll be having my own pity party inside of me. Little by little I am losing the hope that it will happen the easy for us and I am tying to cope with that idea so that I can move on to the next level. I am in the process of looking for jobs and I am focusing on fertility friendly states such as IL and MA as the places I want to go to next (IF affects our entire life, doesn;t it?). I guess that is my new way to "take charge of my fertility" as I feel no desire o temp, OPK... this month. Next month is my b-day and than x-mas, new years.... oh so hard to through it all again childless, like a barren woman! Friday I came back from my visit to the NIH (national institute of health) I had such an amazing time there. Professionally speaking I had one of the highlights of my carrier as a scientist. I was invited by a Nobel prize winner to join his lab as a post doctoral fellow. In my plain ride back home I felt so good about myself, only to get home to see some spotting and have my whole self steam crushed . this week I stood up in front of very important people as a very confident women and ironically I felt the least of the women at the glimpse of a blood stain on my underware. How can this be? I guess we cannot have it all, only if I could choose! sorry , I had to let it all out thanks again Last edited by Cibele; 10-15-2006 at 11:58 AM.

10-15-2006, 09:58 PM	#4 (permalink)
twiggy 1000-4999 post queen of hearts Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: southern california Posts: 3,221	pg ment Cibele - so sorry to hear that the witch showed up . Dont u just hate her!! Was this a clomid cycle ?? Are u starting another one? If u dont mind we asking Im so proud to hear about your acheivements. ITs incredible that u will be working with a Nobel prize winner . WOW - Its amazing. It is great atleast one part of your life is going well. Hopefully the other side will follow soon. I know u have a child just waiting to happen ... Hang in there Im in my fourth month and finally beginning to believe this is really going to happen. IF takes away a lot of things from u ... BUt we all hopefully heal eventually! DO keep in touch

10-15-2006, 10:26 PM	#5 (permalink)
Cibele Registered User Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Kansas Posts: 426	I don't mind at all you asking. It was NOT a clomid cycle. Clomid its not for me, It made O even later than normal. As for this cycle I think I'll seat this one out... just need a break. I though you were Pg but I was not sure. Congratulations one more time. All the best. How's the pregnancy so far? do you know the sex? I went to a funeral today, a 5 month old baby. This friend of mine and I got PG together. I lost my baby and she found out at 18 weeks that the baby had severe heart problems. She fought for 5 months but lose the Battle last October 12th. It was so so sad to see that little girl and her parents today. My friend gave a hug and told me: Our kiddos are in heaven together now! I couldn't not help , I just set there and cried. Please pray for my friend , her name is Sarah and her little girl was Ali. Last edited by Cibele; 10-15-2006 at 10:29 PM.

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10-15-2006, 11:56 AM	#3 (permalink)
Cibele Registered User Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Kansas Posts: 426	How are you doing? I hope you are in a better place than me today