sad update (m/c ment) (child also ment)

[sarahp]

WARNING - MISCARRAIGE MENTIONED - CHILD ALSO MENT

hi dina, maura, stacey....and any other IF friends here

some sad news here on our end. we went in for an u/s at 12 wks, to date the pregnancy, and found that there was no fetal heartbeat. the baby stopped growing at 11 weeks. i was just crushed. i had just had an u/s by a friend of my mom's who is an OB, just for a fun peek, at 10wk3d, and the baby had a heartbeat, was moving and kicking, and we got to take some pictures home. so i figured the u/s yesterday would just be a fun treat, and get to find out our exact due date. so i totally feel as if i've been hit by a freakin' truck.

they did a d&c today, and will examine the fetal tissue for chromosomal abnormalities, and let us know if they find something. they'll also try to tell me the sex of the baby.....for some reason, i'm really fixated on this, and i think it's b/c i'll be able to mourn the loss of my daughter, or my son, instead of just a "baby". does that even make sense? who knows.

i go thru my stages....crying for a while, then i'm fine, then crying again. and i just sent bobby out for a pint of ice cream so i can bury my sorrows in that tonight.

so, as soon as i have a natural cycle, we'll be back on the ttc wagon, as we want our kids to be really close. cami just turned one on wednesday...i can't believe how fast this last year went by. she's the light of my life. i've hugged so many times yesterday and today after i got home from the hospital, she's probably like "mom, put me DOWN!".

crappy update, i know.....just plain sucks, huh?

[MommytoKamryn]

sarahp- I am so so sorry to hear about your m/c. I can't imagine the sadness your going thru. Let me know if there is anything I can do for you. Vent all you want. That's why we are here. I am so surprised when you wrote that you heard the h/b then a week or two later this happens.. I am very shocked. Alot of time I heard once you hear the heartbeat then you should be alright but now you actually warned me so I know this in advance. May God be with you in this time of sorrow. my thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Cibele]

I am sorry Sara. I have one m/c too but much earlier and I know how hard it is. I hope you can get PG again soon...
all the best

[BC-AEO&A]

Oh Sara, I have no words, just s.

[sarahp]

thank you girls.....you know, i thought the same thing....that after that 10wk3d u/s that i snuck in with my mom's friend, and saw that all was well, that i was "in the clear". that's why i feel like i've been hit by a truck with this news. i really thought my u/s yesterday was just going to be a fun peek at the baby.....which is why, when dh couldn't come, i didn't reschedule. man, in hindsight, i won't be going to any appts without him. i would never want to be alone like that again!

but, yes....time will heal. we know it'll happen for us, and this is just a setback, but man, does it hurt your heart.

's

oh, ps- kamryn's mommy....my daughter's name is Camryn! how funny!

[BC-Maura]

Oh, Sarah, sweetie! I am shocked and SO sad to hear your heartbreaking news.... I can't imagine how you must have felt at that u/s ....

And yes, you will get pg again and you will have another child, but you need to take time to grieve this loss (I know you know this)....

Oh, I'm so sorry!

{{{HUGS}}}
++++++++++++++++++
Maura

[twiggy]

Sara -how devestating !
I cant beleive this.I was following your pregnancy on the other board so this is such a shock. Im so so sorry ....
I dont think I have the right words to comfort u . But just want u to know we are all here for u. Once again so so sorry to hear this news...I wish there was something I could do to make u feel better.

[BC-DKNY]

sarah.....i'm so sorry to hear about this. i can totally understand how blindsided you must feel. take the time you need to grieve for your loss. we will be here for you when you're ready.

P.S. a year already?????? how scary is that? i hope camryn had a wonderful birthday.