Anyone ever want to give up TTC and get old life back?

Mason's Mom · 03-03-2006, 11:53 PM

I just went to HPT and started to see the beginnings of AF. She reared her ugly head when I least expected it! I've been seriously considering having this be the last TTC cycle. I feel as if my life has been put on hold for so long (8 cycles) that I just want to move on and accept that I won't have another child. BUT, after seeing my RE 3 weeks ago, he realized that I was on the wrong dosage of clomid for the last 3 cycles and he's starting me over. So.... I'm going to give myself another chance. I feel that if I don't, I'll always regret it and always wonder if I just gave up too soon. I have a feeling that it'll take another m/c to have me give up and accept it. Maybe 42 is just too old for another pg!?

Does anyone else have the feelings of wanting to give up and get your life back? This roller coaster of emotional ups and downs is getting to me. Trying to stay optimistic while not allowing yourself to get too excited in case of another letdown is sooooo exhausting. Isn't it?

xxx's and ooo's
Nina

keeptrying · 03-04-2006, 06:38 AM

Yes oh yes i have that same feeling I feel this has been consuming my life for so long I am 41 have 2 older children (19 & 10) I wonder the same thing, but with my age i can't take a break to regroup. I have 2 ivf cycles left and if i don't try them I will always wonder "IF"

JAS · 03-04-2006, 08:03 AM

Absolutely. I guess I try to just keep living and enjoy my kids and just go through the motions of TTC. If you focus all your attention on TTC it gets really draining. I just don't have much hope and maybe I will be surprised one day but if not......no major breakdown here. I too am 40 and have no time to waste. Believe me..........I really want to experience pregnancy but sometimes I think I am to old. 22 years of crying about it....want to just live life enjoying the kids that I have been blessed with and if I get a surprise oneday then I will feel doubley blessed.....if not I am still blessed. Good luck guys.

JAS

**BC-Maura** · 03-04-2006, 02:24 PM

Hi Nina: What you feel is normal! I think your plan to try the adjusted dosage is a good one... otherwise you might always wonder what might have been ... you can always stop ttc when you feel you've given the new protocol a chance... and who knows, you might have some ++ results with it

!

I hope so

. Good luck and keep us posted+++++++++
Maura

Mason's Mom · 03-04-2006, 02:38 PM

thanks so much for all your support and feelings. it's so amazing to know that what I'm feeling is normal. Sometimes during this whole process I feel like I'm losing my mind!

I have an appt with my RE on Tuesday (cd4) and he's starting me on clomid cd5-9. I'm used to it on cd3-7 so this'll be different!

We'll see!

xxx's and ooo's
Nina

**BC-Maura** · 03-04-2006, 06:32 PM

Nina: You never know; a change in Clomid protocol might be what you need... hope this will do it for you!

Best of luck and keep us posted++++++++++
Maura

03-03-2006, 11:53 PM	#1 (permalink)
Mason's Mom 0-99 post 2 of hearts Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Long Beach, California Posts: 64	Anyone ever want to give up TTC and get old life back? I just went to HPT and started to see the beginnings of AF. She reared her ugly head when I least expected it! I've been seriously considering having this be the last TTC cycle. I feel as if my life has been put on hold for so long (8 cycles) that I just want to move on and accept that I won't have another child. BUT, after seeing my RE 3 weeks ago, he realized that I was on the wrong dosage of clomid for the last 3 cycles and he's starting me over. So.... I'm going to give myself another chance. I feel that if I don't, I'll always regret it and always wonder if I just gave up too soon. I have a feeling that it'll take another m/c to have me give up and accept it. Maybe 42 is just too old for another pg!? Does anyone else have the feelings of wanting to give up and get your life back? This roller coaster of emotional ups and downs is getting to me. Trying to stay optimistic while not allowing yourself to get too excited in case of another letdown is sooooo exhausting. Isn't it? xxx's and ooo's Nina

03-04-2006, 02:24 PM	#4 (permalink)
BC-Maura Board Coordinator Join Date: Jan 2002 Posts: 12,945	Hi Nina: What you feel is normal! I think your plan to try the adjusted dosage is a good one... otherwise you might always wonder what might have been ... you can always stop ttc when you feel you've given the new protocol a chance... and who knows, you might have some ++ results with it! I hope so. Good luck and keep us posted+++++++++ Maura

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03-04-2006, 06:38 AM	#2 (permalink)
keeptrying Registered User Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 42	Yes oh yes i have that same feeling I feel this has been consuming my life for so long I am 41 have 2 older children (19 & 10) I wonder the same thing, but with my age i can't take a break to regroup. I have 2 ivf cycles left and if i don't try them I will always wonder "IF"

03-04-2006, 08:03 AM	#3 (permalink)
JAS 1000-4999 post queen of hearts Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Sunny CA Posts: 1,271	Absolutely. I guess I try to just keep living and enjoy my kids and just go through the motions of TTC. If you focus all your attention on TTC it gets really draining. I just don't have much hope and maybe I will be surprised one day but if not......no major breakdown here. I too am 40 and have no time to waste. Believe me..........I really want to experience pregnancy but sometimes I think I am to old. 22 years of crying about it....want to just live life enjoying the kids that I have been blessed with and if I get a surprise oneday then I will feel doubley blessed.....if not I am still blessed. Good luck guys. JAS

03-04-2006, 02:38 PM	#5 (permalink)
Mason's Mom 0-99 post 2 of hearts Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Long Beach, California Posts: 64	thanks so much for all your support and feelings. it's so amazing to know that what I'm feeling is normal. Sometimes during this whole process I feel like I'm losing my mind! I have an appt with my RE on Tuesday (cd4) and he's starting me on clomid cd5-9. I'm used to it on cd3-7 so this'll be different! We'll see! xxx's and ooo's Nina

03-04-2006, 06:32 PM	#6 (permalink)
BC-Maura Board Coordinator Join Date: Jan 2002 Posts: 12,945	Nina: You never know; a change in Clomid protocol might be what you need... hope this will do it for you! Best of luck and keep us posted++++++++++ Maura