Back to the Dr. March 2.

JulieB2 · 02-16-2006, 02:56 PM

Well, after a LONG hiatus due to dh issues and other things (starting nursing school), I feel like things are in a good place to start again. School is stressful and busy, but dh and i have returned to ourselves after a very long journey back to each other. We've decided to get back on this roller coaster. The thing is, i dont feel as frantic, not that i dont want it as bad, but that im not wanting to be pg to make ME soley happy, if that makes sense. I was depressed about the state of our relationship and focused all of that energy into achieving a pg. It was negative energy (in a way), but now i feel positive and hope that this time around, in a few months, ill be fortunate enough to be pg again.

I'm sure my dr will be putting me back on clomid again. I did two rounds of clomid back in june and july and ovulated on 150mg but timing wasnt great on one of them and the other was a bfn. So we'll give it three or four months of consistantly ovulating and then go from there. Dh's insurance doesnt cover anything (nothing!! even pg tests at the drs office) so trying something more would be a huge burden for us. So, we are crossing our fingers.

**BC-Maura** · 02-16-2006, 03:31 PM

Hi Julie! I'm glad that you and dh are in a better place these days

. And I hope that your new outlook will bring you a ++. It was only after a big hiatus of my own that I was able to return with energy and ++ attitude ... I hope the same is true for you!

Good luck and keep us posted+++++++++++
Maura

**BC-DKNY** · 02-16-2006, 09:19 PM

hi julie....

it sounds like life is on the upswing for you guys! that's great. and i also took a 6 month period off when TTC. it made a world of difference in my tolerance and attitude. it's almost like you can start out with a whole new outlook and all new hope.

i hope your journey is a short and sweet one.

jules75 · 02-17-2006, 09:53 AM

I have decided to take a break for awhile. I am not sure when I'll be back in the game but I am just tired-mentally, physically, and emotionally. 2 1/2 years on this roller coaster has been enough for me for awhile. Since my m/c 9/04 I know when its break time. My dh isn't all that serious about this ttc stuff so I feel alone a lot in this. Not that he doesn't want a baby he just feels it'll come in time. I am willing to take on his attitude for a few months and just go w/the flow. My cycles are now regular, I O on my own just fine and neither of us really have any apparent issues-plus I've been pg before so maybe he's right and it'll be just a matter of time. On top of everything else I am dealing (still) with this stupid staph infection and I just feel I need to get my body healthy. Temping was good for me but I think the stress of knowing I shoud get 3 hrs sleep before hand was messing w/my sleep-I couldn't relax enough to really "sleep". Since I haven't been bbting I have been sleeping much better-what a relief!! I've really been enjoying running again lately and would like to enter a lot of races around Portland this spring/summer-not to compete but just for fun. We also have a lot of things planned this spring and summer so I kind of want to be a little selfish and just enjoy the family I do have w/o being stressed about ttc. I am in no way giving up I just want to relax for a little while........ maybe we'll be blessed w/a suprise. Of course I'll be around as usual checking in on everyone as I am completely addicted to this web site-lol-and I've made so many great friends here!!

Jules

**BC-Maura** · 02-17-2006, 10:44 AM

Hi Jules: As I said to JulieB2, I took a break while ttc (after my first m/c and my molar) and although I didn't want to, it was the BEST thing I could have done. DH and I bought an old house and fixed it up, doing a lot of the work ourselves. I started acupuncture and we got a puppy, with whom I would take long walks in the woods. It did a lot to calm me and help me work through the depression and anxiety that accompanies IF.

Anyway, enough about me

. Enjoy your break, run those races and check in when you feel like it ... glad you won't be gone for good (we'd miss you too much!)....

All the best

+++++++++++++
Maura

jules75 · 02-17-2006, 12:44 PM

Ahhhhh that's so sweet Maura. No, I won't be far away!! I have to check in on my girls-especially awbaby!!! We do have a promise as you know!!! I know I will start to miss the ttc stuff and feel left behind after a while so we'll see how long this break really will be

!!! I'll just have to trust myself to make the decision to come back to it when I am good and ready-however, I'm not getting any younger

!!! Take care and have a great weekend!!

Jules

02-16-2006, 02:56 PM	#1 (permalink)
JulieB2 1000-4999 post queen of hearts Join Date: Jan 2002 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,607 Blog Entries: 10	Back to the Dr. March 2. Well, after a LONG hiatus due to dh issues and other things (starting nursing school), I feel like things are in a good place to start again. School is stressful and busy, but dh and i have returned to ourselves after a very long journey back to each other. We've decided to get back on this roller coaster. The thing is, i dont feel as frantic, not that i dont want it as bad, but that im not wanting to be pg to make ME soley happy, if that makes sense. I was depressed about the state of our relationship and focused all of that energy into achieving a pg. It was negative energy (in a way), but now i feel positive and hope that this time around, in a few months, ill be fortunate enough to be pg again. I'm sure my dr will be putting me back on clomid again. I did two rounds of clomid back in june and july and ovulated on 150mg but timing wasnt great on one of them and the other was a bfn. So we'll give it three or four months of consistantly ovulating and then go from there. Dh's insurance doesnt cover anything (nothing!! even pg tests at the drs office) so trying something more would be a huge burden for us. So, we are crossing our fingers. __________________ Julie My one and only beautiful dd

02-16-2006, 03:31 PM	#2 (permalink)
BC-Maura Board Coordinator Join Date: Jan 2002 Posts: 12,946	Hi Julie! I'm glad that you and dh are in a better place these days. And I hope that your new outlook will bring you a ++. It was only after a big hiatus of my own that I was able to return with energy and ++ attitude ... I hope the same is true for you! Good luck and keep us posted+++++++++++ Maura

02-17-2006, 10:44 AM	#5 (permalink)
BC-Maura Board Coordinator Join Date: Jan 2002 Posts: 12,946	Hi Jules: As I said to JulieB2, I took a break while ttc (after my first m/c and my molar) and although I didn't want to, it was the BEST thing I could have done. DH and I bought an old house and fixed it up, doing a lot of the work ourselves. I started acupuncture and we got a puppy, with whom I would take long walks in the woods. It did a lot to calm me and help me work through the depression and anxiety that accompanies IF. Anyway, enough about me. Enjoy your break, run those races and check in when you feel like it ... glad you won't be gone for good (we'd miss you too much!).... All the best+++++++++++++ Maura

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02-17-2006, 09:53 AM	#4 (permalink)
jules75 Registered User Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: oregon Posts: 1,546	I have decided to take a break for awhile. I am not sure when I'll be back in the game but I am just tired-mentally, physically, and emotionally. 2 1/2 years on this roller coaster has been enough for me for awhile. Since my m/c 9/04 I know when its break time. My dh isn't all that serious about this ttc stuff so I feel alone a lot in this. Not that he doesn't want a baby he just feels it'll come in time. I am willing to take on his attitude for a few months and just go w/the flow. My cycles are now regular, I O on my own just fine and neither of us really have any apparent issues-plus I've been pg before so maybe he's right and it'll be just a matter of time. On top of everything else I am dealing (still) with this stupid staph infection and I just feel I need to get my body healthy. Temping was good for me but I think the stress of knowing I shoud get 3 hrs sleep before hand was messing w/my sleep-I couldn't relax enough to really "sleep". Since I haven't been bbting I have been sleeping much better-what a relief!! I've really been enjoying running again lately and would like to enter a lot of races around Portland this spring/summer-not to compete but just for fun. We also have a lot of things planned this spring and summer so I kind of want to be a little selfish and just enjoy the family I do have w/o being stressed about ttc. I am in no way giving up I just want to relax for a little while........ maybe we'll be blessed w/a suprise. Of course I'll be around as usual checking in on everyone as I am completely addicted to this web site-lol-and I've made so many great friends here!! Jules

02-17-2006, 12:44 PM	#6 (permalink)
jules75 Registered User Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: oregon Posts: 1,546	Ahhhhh that's so sweet Maura. No, I won't be far away!! I have to check in on my girls-especially awbaby!!! We do have a promise as you know!!! I know I will start to miss the ttc stuff and feel left behind after a while so we'll see how long this break really will be !!! I'll just have to trust myself to make the decision to come back to it when I am good and ready-however, I'm not getting any younger !!! Take care and have a great weekend!! Jules