Does anyone else feel confused?

[burtneysmom]

Hi all, me again.

I just don't know how I feel anymore. I think we're probably going to wait 1-2 more cycles before we start meds. But there's a part of me that just wants to do it now. I just feel so confused. I don't know what I want anymoe Does anybody else know how I feel? The best way to describe it is, I feel numb. I'm not surprised by failed cycles anymore, or even heartbroken by them. I expect them to fail. I hate feeling this way, and I don't mean to bring anybody down.

How do I know when I'm ready to start meds? A few days ago I freaked and felt like that put me under so much pressure. But now, after hearing and remembering some stories of women who got pregnant first month, I think I want to try this month. Poor hubby, I already know he doesn't want to this month. With his switching jobs and everything, he doesn't need this. Especially with me constantly changing my mind. But I know if I don't do it this cycle it will be 2 more months before I can even start clomid.

What would you do? Any insight would be helpful, as I have to make up my mind by saturday. Thanks

God Bless,
Shavon

[BC-DKNY]

well, the first thing i would ask you is how much time do you have before you need to mske this decision? if you have a few days, i would do some soul searching and decide what you think is best for both you and dh.

it sounds like your torn between wanting and needing a little break and feeling like you don't want to waste time. i can relate to both. at one point i actually put ttc on hold for 6 mos. i needed a break from it in a big way. it was totally taking over my life and it was stressing me to the max. i'm sure i don't have to tell you it didn't do much for our love life that i was putting so much stress on us either.

no one can tell you what to do shavon. my thinking (for me personally) was that certianly a few months wasn't gonna make or break us. i think we had already been trying just under 3 years at that point. the break brought me all new hope and a brand new attitude. it's totally amazing what a couple of months will do for you without the pressure of timed BMS, without the stress and wondering of the 2ww, without the OPK's and HPT's. i tell you, i was like a new woman!

i would give it some thought and think of the both of you. don't forget, you're in this together.

[LeslieT]

I definitely agree. I know it's so hard when it's YOU, and you want so desperately to be pregnant right now! But it sounds like you and your DH really need the break emotionally, and it's only a couple of months. Not long at all in the grand scheme of things, and it sounds like the emotional healing time, and being able to just focus on other things for a couple of months, would be very helpful for you both.

My very best wishes to you for whenever you get started again!

[burtneysmom]

Thanks so much girls! Dh said he absolutely does not want me to start the clomid until next cycle. But we are going to go ahead and start the glucophage now, it can't hurt anything. Dh is under alot of stress right now, and doesn't need anymore. Not to mention, I had forgotten, if we wait I will DEFINETLY be under different insurance. So maybe they will help with the cost, as our insurance now pays nothing. It's worth a try.

Thanks again!

God Bless,
Shavon

[BC-DKNY]

well then i say you have nothing to lose! if you're not being covered now at all, things can't get any harder financially right? with any luck, you'll get some coverage from your new plan and things will be easier!

keep us posted.

[stacy-ann]

First let me give you a big When I was in TTc I felt the same way. The last thing you need is additional stress.

Everyone is different and I would say you have to go with whatever is right for you and your dh. It makes the ttc process less stressful if you and your dh are on the same page. If you feel you need to take a cycle offf then go for it and take that time to "relax" a bit and not have to think about TTc for that month. I did it 2x and got pg with both my kids. With my dd I had a failed FET the month before and I just couldn't take it(I also had no choice, I had developed cysts on my ovaries).

Since your dh is under stress now maybe it's a good idea to take a cycle off. What you can do on the QT is do the OPK and when it's a + do the mattress mombo, especially on those CM days. make it into a romantic day/night and go for it. Don't let your dh know you are doing the OPK. I did that with dh and not only was it passionate(not worrying about if we timed it right) we hit the jackpot with Sydnee.

Take care

[rudyk74]

totaly agree with stacy-ann, dh knows what we are ttc, but he dosent want the blow by blows of every waking moment, says it takes all the fun and romance out of it, and hes right, no one wants a breeding farm, esp men. so i just temp and opk on my own, my chart is on my nightstand along with the therm so he knows im doing it but i dont tell him about it everyday, he knows its there and if he has a question about it ill answer it if not i dont bring it up. i also opk at work, thats where im always at in the afternoons, so there are no boxes or used tests in the bathroom trash can. hes none the wiser he thinks hes mr. sex machine b/c you "just cant get enough" and your getting the job done when it needs to be done, so everyones happyKWIM LOL just make sure to be consistant thoughout the whole cycle, because they will get wise to what your doing and bust you on it..been there but good luck keep us posted hope this advice helps, besides were here to rant to so youll always have an outlet for you to vent -kel

[burtneysmom]

Thanks so much again! And LOL about the Mr. sex machine!!! I am planning on doing the temps and opk on the sly! It probably will be nice to take a break from all of this ttc business. Poor dh, whenever I'm "in the mood" his first question is always are you ovulating! Which of course then gets me mad and I bark back at him, is that the only time I'm allowed to want it?! Ect. , ect, ect!! Sorry, maybe a little bit too much info! But I'm sure you've all been there. A break will be nice, and hey I won't have to act like I'm pregnant!

Thanks again for the fresh outlook!

God Bless,
Shavon

[TNgurl]

Hey girl...

I am a little late looking at this post. I know its a little old but I wanted to add my two cents. Im relatively new to the site and Im not sure of your history. However, you mentioned in a post that you were not gonna do the clomid but just do the glucophage. My doctor recently told me that in his experience, he has found better success when the glucophage has been in the body longer. -- THEN introducing the clomid. That is what he has just done with me. So, when I read that I thought hmm, maybe this will be a little help as they wait!
Also... where in Indiana do you live? I use to live in Crown Point. I noticed the Northern Indiana.... had to ask!

Take care,
~Amy

[momwannabe]

Hey there! Just wanted to give you a big
Sounds like you have worked things out with dh in terms of starting. I can relate to the struggle between needing the break, but feeling like you may be wasting time ttc. It's so hard!

I also wanted to echo Amy's thoughts about being on the gloucafage first and then introducing the clomid. From what I've heard the gloucafage can take up to 2-3 months to help regulate your cycles with PCOS. Also, you need to work up to the dose. Don't know how much you'll be taking, but for me I had trouble tolerating even the 500mg the first time I was on it. Eventually ended up switching to the XR (extended release)version and was able to get up to 1500mg. Whatever you do, don't start out on 1500mg of either or you'll be in the bathroom and feeling VERY sick! My RE had me start with 500 for 5 days, and then add another 500 for 5 more days, and then add another 500.

Good luck!!!
Robin