What is wrong with me?

[jilltine]

I have been a crying mess lately. Today at my OB appt I sat in the waiting room and started crying. I was thinking I am getting down to the last few days of being pregnant and this may be the only time I may get to experience this. I am thinking it is all the hormones. The other day when we went to get out maternity pictures done, when the photographer showed us some sample pics the tears came out again.

My OB told me he normally has girls crying to get the baby out, not to keep them in. He acted concerned how I will be after the baby comes. He said he will have to put me on the "watch list." Great.

[PradasMom]

Jill,
Ohhhhhh ignore (sort of) that doctor putting you on a watch list!
I had a crying fit the other morning, was convinced my DH was going to leave me, and sent several angry/ desperate txt's. It's all cleared up now - of course he's not leaving, but it was horomones gone bezerko in me. He's got great co-workers, most of whom are dads, and they assured him it's "her horomones, go home early, make her dinner, pamper her and it'll be a thing of the past". Wise men wise men.
We're due in 2 weeks, girl, it's OK to sob your eyes out at "nothing at all" or something that inflicts even a tiny feeling.

"watch list"- hmmppphh my arse! Your OB is a "he", right? Well, he hasn't been through it, that's all.

My $.02. You're FINE. Yes we all need to look out for post-partum depresssion, but for now just cry and let it out!

[DMS721]

It the hormones!

And not to scae you, but I found the hormones the first two weeks after my little guy's birth to be way worse than anything I experienced during pregnancy or on the infertlity meds. Basically I say this to warn your hubbys. My hubby thought I'd be fine once I delivered. It took several post partum nurses to assure him that all of my crying and up and down emotions were completely normal for being so soon after delivery.

Dawn

[janslem]

Oh you sound just like me with my first pregnancy. I was so bad that when I was 10 and they told me it was time to push i was bawling cause i wasnt gonna feel her anymore. I was a total mess. With this last pregnancy I cried almost everyday, well at least it felt like it. Since I have had him I am fine. I hope all works out for you.


janslem

[thunderbird]

Yeah, pregnancy hormones really mess with our heads. Lack of sleep won't help either! But it's all pretty normal!

[J&FM2005]

I agree that it is hormones. I also think that some of it is infertility. I know in my case that infertility changed me. The whole pregnancy, I felt like I was walking on eggshells. I didn't even take 90% of the stuff we bought out of the boxes because I couldn't believe I was actually going to bring a baby home.

When Madi came out and the doctor showed her to me, my first words were "Oh my God. There really was a baby in there?" I think the whole pregnancy, I was too scared to believe it.

My point is that we have been through so much to get where we are, that it adds to the hormones. You are okay, nothing is wrong with you. You are a perfectly normal woman who has already been to hell and back.

PS. I am also on my OBs "watch list."

[4leaf]

Originally Posted by J&FM2005

I agree that it is hormones. I also think that some of it is infertility. I know in my case that infertility changed me. The whole pregnancy, I felt like I was walking on eggshells. I didn't even take 90% of the stuff we bought out of the boxes because I couldn't believe I was actually going to bring a baby home.

When Madi came out and the doctor showed her to me, my first words were "Oh my God. There really was a baby in there?" I think the whole pregnancy, I was too scared to believe it.

My point is that we have been through so much to get where we are, that it adds to the hormones. You are okay, nothing is wrong with you. You are a perfectly normal woman who has already been to hell and back.

PS. I am also on my OBs "watch list."

Wow, Jillian, you are so right on with this. So well said, and exactly where I am right now...still hard to believe this can happen. Better put myself on the "watch list" too (or maybe OB already has!)

[BC-Ashlee5455]

totally normal for sure!!

[BUNKER]

Jill- There is nothing wrong with you. We all go through crazy emotions during and after pregnancy. Don't feel bad for being on a 'watch list'. I had to take meds for a year after L was born just to function and we are watching to see if I need it this time. my doc is all ready with a plan if I need it this time.
Things will not go as we all dream it to be with this perfect baby and family and we have a hard time accepting that when we tried so hard and waited so long for our babies.
Just be honest with yourself and take the help if you need it so you can be a good mother to your child. I am here if you want to PM me about it.
H